Let's see......where to start. How about last week during my BD(7) and FSD(7) first grade program.

FDH and I went to the early program because it worked with both of our work schedules. I was hoping that his ex would show up at the later one but of course I'm not that lucky. Both her and her husband sat in the same row across the isle as FDH and I. I can't tell you how many times FDH had to look over at his ex wife. At one point I reached down and tickled his thigh to get him interact with me instead of looking over at her. It finally got to the point that I finally had to say something to him about what I do when she is around is ignore her. Not only was it rude and disrespectful to me but it was a uncomfortable and wierd situation for me as well.

Here we are less then two weeks away from getting married and for some reason he can't keep his eyes off of her. When I asked him about it he told me that he is not attracted to her and he doesn't know why he had to keep looking at her.

Yesterday, I get home from work and the next door neighbor stopped me before I walked in the house to ask me if she could give my BD horse back riding lessons for free. I told her that would be fine and then went in and told FDH. FDH immediately tells me that my BD can't if she won't do the same for his kids because it's not fair that she gets to do something that they can't and he doesn't want them to be jelous. (We have my BD full time and his kids every other week) He then asked me if I had asked the neighbor if she would do the same for his kids, which of course I didn't because she was offering to do something nice and I didn't want to be rude.

Last night, we were laying in bed. I was wathing a movie and finishing my glass of red wine. After I brushed my teeth I proceeded to climb into bed next to FDH, who had been asleep for all of 15 minutes, and I started to kiss him. After several intimate kisses he says I love you, insert his BD's name. My reaction was, what the f!ck. He tried to say that he said it because he was sleeping but I can assure you he wasn't in a deep sleep and I was not kissing him like a seven year old would. To make matters worse, we are supposed to get married in 10 days.

FDH will be out of town from today to Sunday visiting his sick grandfather. He has been telling me all about this wonderful thing that he and his brther are going to do for their mother while he's over there but hasn't even remembered that I'm a mom too.

I'm just at a lose right now.