I'm so sorry you are still dealing with this!! It makes me hurt for you. I really wish you had a friend like that, that you could call and they would come running just to be there and understand. I know the feeling. Sitting in an ER all by myself, blood everywhere, and the nurses coming in every hour or so to check on me and just say theres nothing they can do for a miscarriage. I was in a new city, my bf didn't come... Horrible! So I'm sending big hugs and support your way, even if its virtual.