O/T: My 'Turning 30 Meltdown'
I am so sick over this, and I have no idea why!? I mean, seriously, I could just :sick: right now.
I turned 30 today. Last night I cried myself to sleep thinking of all my failures, not having any bio kids, everything I should have accomplished by now and haven't, etc..
Truth is though, I have a great DH, two good skids, a house, nice car, good job, good benefits, retirement account, the list goes on and on. So, WHY am I a basketcase???? I am totally confused by how I feel right now. Anyone else feel this way when you turned 30?
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Aww, I'm sorry
Aww, I'm sorry
Lots of people think 30 means
Lots of people think 30 means you're getting old and that scares them. I was the only one of all my friends that celebrated it instead of crying. 30 is the new 20 but better, because you are now smarter, more experienced and can make better choices. You also have more money now to enjoy those choices!
I just turned 40 a few months ago and decided to celebrate that too, with my wedding! But I do understand because I went through a period of self reflection, which was really more like self flagellation about the things I didn't do (like not having bio kids). Luckily it passed and I hope yours will soon. Seriously, 30 is not old and definitely not too late to do anything you want to do!
You know, I really don't want
You know, I really don't want bio kids either, but for some reason it's like I'm grieving the fact that I haven't had any, lol. It's so weird.
I was telling DH that last night.. bless his heart, he witnessed the whole thing..
I was like 'I never had babies!! whaaa whaaa!' He goes, 'Well, lets have one then..' I go, 'But I don't want any!' hahaha.. it's funny thinking about it, but if I let myself stop and think, I still am teary eyed about it. And I know it's completely ridiculous!
Thank you SOOOO much!!! I do
Thank you SOOOO much!!! I do feel much better today :). I realize I was being a little ridiculous, but I do think it's mostly hormones. That, and I have a very bad habit of looking at the glass as half empty. Especially when it comes to myself and my accomplishments, or lack thereof. I do appreciate your post though, it makes me feel better to know that this biological clock crap will go away eventually, lol.
I'm sorry! I really hope you
40 hurt. I don't even recall
40 hurt. I don't even recall 30... Leading up to my 40th birthday I cried and cried and cried. That was almost 5 years ago and EXCEPT for step drama, I'm a WAY better person (mentally and physically) now then I was then!
That sounds just like me
That sounds just like me right now. I almost called in to work today, but I figured if I did that I'd just be wallowing in self pity all day. At least going to work kinda gets my mind off it. Although, I have had to hold back tears quite a few times today. I really hope these feelings pass soon!
Aww.. now I feel like a big
Aww.. now I feel like a big whiner!! lol
I'm sorry you're having it rough though. Been there, and it sucks. Up until the last year or two, I had collectors nipping at my heels constantly. I hope things get better for you soon :).
That is very true. Maybe I
That is very true. Maybe I need to just start thinking about all those things :).
Turning 30 was weird for me:
Turning 30 was weird for me: divorce, financial ruin, blah blah blah. I went out, got a tattoo (I know, how cliche is that?), dusted myself off, and went on to have a great decade. In my 30s I became more self-aware, self-reliant, confident, and happier than I had ever been.
So it's a normal milestone to be introspective right now...but you still have a lot to look forward to, in addtion to what you are already thankful for.
(not to scare you, but yeah, like everyone else has said, 40+ sucks)
30 was hell for me. I felt
30 was hell for me. I felt like I had accomplished nothing. 40 was a breeze. Although I do feel like my body is turning on me daily...44 now. I would give anything to have 30 back. I lost my son at 32 and was widowed at 34 so I feel sometimes like I am 50 having aged so much.
Don't let 30 get you down. What helped me was the whole family came in and threw me a huge surprise party.
Do something really fun for your 30th and it will be easier to take. Also, it could be worse you could have accomplished nothing at this point in the game, but it doesn't sound like that...
Happy Birthday! I'll be 30 in
Happy Birthday! I'll be 30 in about 6 months, and I don't feel bad about that at all. I don't have bio kids yet, and I'm okay with that. I've made a lot of mistakes, but I finally realized that I can't dwell on that any longer. I have a DH that loves me so much, and I never thought I would ever settle down and get married! He teases me about turning 30, like I'm supposed to be upset about it. I don't think 30 is old, it seems like that's when your adulthood is finally established and you are starting to gain respect. I've learned so much about life through my 20's and I feel like I have so much left to discover, so every year brings more wisdom to help me deal with this crazy world!
Like you said, you have accomplished a lot with your family, and have a stable life professionally and personally. Be proud of yourself, you have earned it!
Awwww, sorry you feel this
Awwww, sorry you feel this way, I do know the feeling. I really was panicking while getting close to 30...was recently divorced so my party times were so much fun it helped w/the doom and gloom haha! I realized I had a life ahead of me still.
So far, the 30's have been my best years-I've traveled a lot, met new friends, have seen my kids grow, i've grown, I partied like a rock star ha!, had fun, dated whomever I wanted (never around my kids), got back on my feet financially after the devastation to your wallet from divorce- and bought a house again on my own..BUT they were also tough being a single parent, feeling lonely and carrying the whole load-I still look at it fondly-I'm turning 37 this year and freaking out about 40 also!
Then at 35 I met my bf and fell in love for the first time in my life and am experiencing all the lovely ups and downs of a relationship with someone who adores me..so it's still wonderful...ok-scracth the bm and sd and it'd be perfect LOL.
I think it's normal to use
I think it's normal to use some milestones and take the opportunity to evaluate where you are in life and decide where you want to go. Some call it "mid-life crisis", but I think they can happen anytime.
The question is...are you happy? Or are you unhappy because you feel you *should* be happy but aren't?
We place importance on these
We place importance on these made up milestones. Its ok. Be sad freak out then move on.
I will be 35 tomorrow. That sucks, but not going to focus on it. There are a lot of things I thought would be different. Once you get over the initial shock, get up and go have some fun for your birthday!