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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 3:40pm

Last night i opened my mouth.

Kaos had my nerves shot and my last nerve frazzled and went *poof*. I spouted off at the mouth with everything and held nothing back about what i thought of him and his damn momma.

And i feel like total shit.

When i first heard him awake this am the first thing was to tell him "i said some mean and evil things. Theres no excuse. And im so sorry."

When lurch got home, i told him "i did not control myself and said alot of mean and hurtful things that i cant take back, as much as i wish i could. U didnt deserve to hear that. And im sorry."

Then i apologized to dh for saying such things to people he loves and im so sorry.

I ruined our anniversary... and i feel like total shit.

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Submitted by robin333 on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 3:45pm

We all have lost it and said things we regret at some point in our lives . You owned it and apologized. Stop beating yourself up. Hugs.

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 3:53pm

Thnx. I said some very mean stuff they did not deserve to hear. And todays our anniversary..... last year dh forgot and i gave him hell. But now ive done trumped that... ugh.

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Submitted by ctnmom on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:02pm

Hey, you're human. We all have our moments. Sometimes life is just TOO much- we're all allowed a meltdown once in a while. And you Apologized- so important. Prayers Smile

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:37pm

Thanx. Im not looking for excuses or sympathy, i feel shitty as it is. I spoke my mind but they didnt deserve to hear the unfiltered things they heard. No excuses. Just venting.

Thanx for ur prayers.

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:09pm

Thanks lady. Just feel like shit for the kids. No amount of spouting off ever makes up for me telling him quite clearly what a pos his mom is. I never shoulda gone there. Hes 12. Not 18...

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:25pm

Everyone has quietly retreated into their own corners due to me and my big mouth. It feels so wierd and lonely. But i have noone to blame but myself.

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:41pm

Hed been on my ass all day trying to push my buttons. Dh took the graceful way out and went to bed, as i should have. The proverbial straw was leaving lights on. Not accidentally, he said "lurch wake up! Lets got turn lights on! Cmon lets mess with the lights!!!!"

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:49pm

Thanks.

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Sun, 10/25/2015 - 4:53pm

Well i did not take the graceful way out and stooped to a new level. Thanks girls for making me feel human.

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Submitted by Tuff Noogies on Mon, 10/26/2015 - 11:21am

thanks guys. i feel a bit better today, i even had a funny moment w/ lurch on the way to his school this a.m. i think i'll just lay low for a few days until things return to normal. i have to figure out my new 21st century smartphone, donchaknow, so that'll keep me occupied for a few days Wink

and sally - "sir breaks a lot" - that was freaking hilarious. i'm gonna start calling dh that!!!!