It seems like anything bad that can happen, happens all at once. It seem like no matter what I do it doesn't matter. Let's start with insurance. Stupid insurance company didn't get my paperwork in the data base so when I tried to go to the doctor this morning my insurance was denied so I had to cancel my appointment. I couldn't hardly afford the copay let alone the whole fee. Even though I have been going to this doctor for years, he decided not to see me because of my insurance status. Called my insurance and all I got was, "It doesn't appear that your paperwork was entered into the database. Although after looking into your file, I see that it was submitted by you but that a worker failed to put it in the system. I can do it myself today, although you will have to call back and see when it will be active." So yeah that pisses me off. Not only did I have a appointment today for a thrown back but my daughter has a dentist appointment tomorrow that I am going to have to cancel.

The reason I was going to the doctor, as stated above, was because I have thrown out my back or it sure does feel like it. I am so stressed because of this. I can't work, I can't do anything with my family, I can't sleep and I am in intense pain. I haven't slept for more then 30 minutes at a time for almost a week and I haven't been able to work since Friday. I have so much to do and I feel like I'm becoming overwhelmed.

On top of all this bitch BM, who has always been MIA and knows SD wants nothing to do with her, has been threatening to take us back to court again. She now has enlisted her 7 year old son to contact SD and do BM's talking for her. Yesterday we received a text from the son saying, " Mom misses you and really wants to see you. She just wants you to know that no matter what your dad has told you, she will never let you go and will take your dad to court soon." This came from a 7 year old boy, which is SD's brother. We have tried to encourage contact between SD and her brother but after many times of SD being in contact with her brother and her BM trying to interject, SD gave up on trying to make contact with BM's family including her brother.

I don't know what to do anymore. Me and DH haven't exactly been getting along lately with everything else going on. I hate being broke and I hate nothing going right. I hate that BM is someone that can just top everything off and make things a hundred times worse then it has to be. I'm....just......done.........