I ran along this website today for the first time and I love it. It feels great to be reminded that I am not alone in my situation.

I became a SM when I was 18 and I am now 24. I have two BS with my Husband. My SS is 9 years old. So he has known me since he was 2 going on 3.

Things seem pretty good most of the time. It's not perfect and there have been plently of fights/misunderstandings/ etc. My SS shows me respect and wants to be around his brothers and I I'm very thankful for that.

BM on the other can be sometimes crazy! Overall, she does not except the fact that my husband is NOT a dead beat and LOVES their son. I sometimes get jealous when my MIL and BM talk. I always feel like BM does it on purpose to remind she was there first. She still talks to most of my husband's family (which is really annoying b/c I feel like they live for drama between us).

My MIL and I relationship has gotten a lot better over the past few years. She is finally starting to see how BM can really be and acts.

I think BM acts funny towards me b/c she still cares/jealous/and see what kind of life she could have had. And that her family could have been together. I hate when she keeps my husband away from his son. I feel like she knows she has us by the balls and thinks she can have control.

But she isn't the perfect mom herself. She has had CPS called on her, my SS has been electrocuted under her supervision, was almost in trouble for truancy last year (when she didn't work), takes advantage of my husband family, can not keep up with my SS (and it's her only kid), been arrested mutiple times (fighting, DWLI - which still is)and so on and so on. In the beginning I put myself in her shoes (a lot) and would help her more than my husband did (by the way, he hates her). But about a 6 months ago I have started to be frustrated and have anger towards her b/c I know how she really is and everyone thinks she's an angel. I'm just waiting for the time to come when her true colors show. I think she hasn't taken my husband back to court fo rmore money b/c she knows that we will fight for shared custody (which he has asked upfront w/ her but she said that would never happen b/c that's her son and her mom and sisters were in her ear and b/c of course of the money. My husband has threatened her of taking her back to court before since she couldn't be a stable mom or help w/ school..etc). I've come to the final decision that I don't care if she doesn't go through me when it comes to my SS b/c I know at one point she will need my help and that I will just let things go with the flow. I'm not going to stress myself over anything at all. I will always be here for my SS and he knows that.... Sorry if this seems all over the place, but I'm just typing what comes to my mind....