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Rae06's picture

I love my husband more than life itself. However, on days like today I get so angry at him for no reason really. The skids don't come around, don't call, text, or acknowledge us at all. Exactly how I wanted after everything they've done over the years. I guess my anger toward him is, why did he not do something when he lived with them to make them respectful children. I get that he felt trapped in the marriage and didn't want to be around her, but why not teach the children how to behave and to respect him. I really wanted to love them. Now just thinking about them makes me ill. I love children. In my job I work with them 10 hrs a day and I coach little league. Hating these kids makes me feel like a monster.

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DaizyDuke's picture

Was/is BM more of a free range parent? Was it just easier for your DH to go along with her parenting style, than to rock the boat? You do pose an interesting question

Rae06's picture

He says bm started turning them against him when the twins were born which would have made the oldest 6 yr old. Why did he allow it? He says it was just easier to let bm have her way than to fight. Idk

misSTEP's picture

Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned. (Buddha)

Easier said than done, I know. Try to distract yourself from the thoughts of when they were around. Focus on improving your marriage now that they aren't. Maybe try counseling if necessary. Not for him. Not for your marriage. But for you. Having those negative feelings isn't doing you any good.