I was half way awake and laying in bed thinking sort of. Well anyway I was thinking how nice it would be that I could get a little extra money b/c i still have a few things I really need to do and the last bit of money i have til fri i had to pay a bill with. But then I thought no i don;t want it to just appear and i would rather work for the money then it be handed to me.

So that got me thinking even more how can anyone just want to someone to just hand them a living? plus feel entitled to it no less like the world owes you for just being here? And i just can't figure out how they can;t feel guilt for taking?

Anyway it got me to thinking about all the skids that most people on here talk about and that I just can;t get it I guess? B/c i would rather rely on myself and have a real job instead of guilting someone or taking from someone or government just so I didn't have to have a job and sit on my butt. At the same time I would find it too much work to keep up with having to do that. Manipulating and guilting and stealing and lieing to just have someone else foot the bill for me. Or to even be at the mercy of someone else and relying on someone else. WOW umm no thanks.