Strange I really missed SD17 at one point. After being there for 15 years of her life I truly thought not having her in my life was going to be much harder than it is proving to be. SD doesn't contact me or come over anymore and I am not upset. It isn't like it has been years, it has only been about 2 months and I am already over it. What does that say about all the years I put into our relationship? I have been looking into activities for our upcoming vacation and really can not think of one reason of why I would miss her on this trip. In the past I have always tried to look at things from my DH's perspective and often I felt miserable for him for what SD and/or BM were doing to him. Not anymore. I am relishing in the thought of our upcoming vacation without SD being there. I can't help but to think how much easier things will be on me and my DD and neices without her around. I have always enjoyed vacations with her, but they were stressful at times. It seems that for the moment I am in a quiet place. I have my worries and frustrations like everyone else, but as far as my relationship with SD well my give a damn is broke. Worse than that even, I don't care about her relationship with my DH or DD either. Don't get me wrong I do not wish any harm to come to my SD, but I don't wish for the great things like I did in the past either. I am numb to all of it. I worked on this relationship 3 years short of half of my life and I have nothing to show for it. I regret ever having become so entangled in this girl's life. I don't think it was fair for anyone involved. I have only me to blame for that. Child support is over now that she is married and expecting. Was it this that makes me not care anymore? Is it that I felt like she was poisoning all of us when she came around? Is it the fact I have taken on two more girls in my home? I'm not happy or sad, I'm just moving on.