Dear SD10:
I can't stand how you sit there and glare at me. I'm not intimidated by you, I'm not going to give in because you can sit there and give me a death stare for hours on end. I hate that you sit there and pee your pants because you are mad. You are not a dog. Learn how to deal with disappointment better than soiling yourself, the couch, the bed, the carpet, ect. I absolutely want to loose my mind when you talk nasty. I want to clean out your mouth because you use those nasty words. I loathe your baby talk, saying things incorrectly and whining. I especially HATE when you purposely say my daughters name incorrectly. I want to rip my hair out when you sit there and talk about your dads ex. She obviously didn't care that much for you or your father. It makes me want to throw things back at you when you dump your laundry at my feet or leave your dishes everywhere. I hate your snotty entitled attitude. I want to scream when you argue or tell me what to do. I can't stand that you hide it all from your dad so everyone thinks I'm this horrible person and reading into things. I'm going to lose it next time you do something I told you not to do when I comes to my daughter. It makes me sick how you refuse you wash your hands or face even after being told. The smell of your room makes me ill. I never want to cook for you when you make faces and throw away food I made for you. Your lying makes me so mad. Can't you open your mouth without lying once? It drives me up a wall when you act all nice to me only in front of people. I think its ridiculous that a 10 year old refuses to go anywhere without a stuffed animal. I am so embarrassed by you in public. I hate going anywhere with you. I can't handle the sh*t fit you throw if your father so much as looks at me for too long. He can't be all yours. It frustrates me so much when you stay up at night so you can sneak in to see what your dad and I are doing or talking about. Its none of your business, you aren't the center of the world. I can't stand the stupid questions and things constantly coming out of your mouth so you can be sure you are always the center of attention. I'm going to flip next time you use/take/ruin my things or my babys things.
As much as I know this is your parents fault too its frustrating as hell. I hate how you manipulate things and are so conniving. I wish I had better control over my feeling because I hate being so bitter and frustrated. I wish I could truly disengage and not care. I wish for your sake go your parents would parent you and make you act like a 10 year old. I wish you would learn to do something for yourself. Most 10 year olds don't need constant supervision and help getting dressed, cutting food, going to the bathroom. I wish you used your smarts for more than making the world turn around you. Someday you will have to learn some very hard lessons because the world doesn't work that way, only guilty parents.
Sincerely,
Newbiemommy