H told me this past weekend that he is planning to move out in June, maybe sooner. In addition to this, since we have been here before I have learned based on past experience that although I do love my H and am very saddened by all of this, unfortunately I cannot let on to H that I feel this way because he is just too sensitive and will take any positive attention or affection on my part as me wanting to reconcile, which I don't.

So my days as an SP and playing host to an eow guest are now numbered - that's the good part. The scary part is that it'll now be my children who are the eow guests in H's home, and knowing my H and how he cannot be without a female companion for very long, I fear it won't be long before there's another woman around possibly feeling about my children the way I feel about SD, because I'm sure my H's parenting style won't change (he has told me it won't!)

Both fortunately and unfortunately however, right now it looks highly unlikely that my children will be the eow guests that will drive a SM crazy, but rather the ocassional, school break guests. I told H that whether we worked it out or not there was a good chance that I may have to relocate for my career, and with me being the primary financial provider for the household (for the home itself and kids by a long shot, and even some for H & his kids!), that is one thing H has never questioned is the need for me to be able to work and provide. That said, unfortunately now that H & I will not be together, and with me already established as the primary caregiver for the children both financially and otherwise, this means a long-distance parenting plan is likely on the horizon for us, meaning that unfortunately my children will no longer have a Dad active in their daily lives. This makes me the saddest of all about this whole situation, so like I mentioned pervious posts, I am going to suggest that H consider following us and moving to where we live once we are established, and I don't consider this an unreasonable request given that this is exactly what H did in moving to our current city of residence to be closer to SD (without a job lined up!), and now that SD will be a teenager and the plan was for her to come live with him anyway at this age (at least that's what H said - of course that wouldn't be happening if we were still together!), then in my mind that removes the biggest barrier to H not taking me up on my suggestion for him to maintain an active role in the daily lives of ours sons that he's helped raise from infancy! H can bring SD with him, and hopefully we can all just live happily ever after - just not together !