Well, I've been MIA for a few weeks so I thought I'd come back and give an update. H & I are still "together", as we still live together and we ocassionally have our moments, but during these last few weeks I decided to give it one last try unfortunately I've only confirmed that it really is best that we part ways once and for all.

I love my H very much, which is why it's been so hard to stick to my decision for us to part, but I just can't live like this anymore. I just feel like my life has been on hold for the past few years we've been married/living together, but especially these last 9 months of wrangling with the decision to separate. I really think we just need to "*hit or get off the pot" so to speak, and I just don't see our marriage leaning towards staying together.

Honestly I struggle to find reasons for us to stay together other than the kids , and I just don't think that's enough for me, not to mention how emotionally and psychologically hard that is on H & I to continue together for the kids when at least one of us (namely me) simply doesn't want to be together anymore. I love our "moments" of happiness, but most of the time I am not happy in this marriage, and I'm pretty sure H feels the same way only he just won't admit or accept it because he's always been a heart-led person that believes love is enough, but unfortunately he married a head-led person who is always looking for the logical/rational reasoning for everything.