So it's an SD12 weekend (UGH!) and H is on his way to pick her up. H calls me at work on my cell because SD asked him if she's spending Spring Break with him?!

Apparently her Spring Break is next week (she lives in a neighboring state, but only about 15 miles away from us.) Anyway, why H is calling and telling me this I don't know since I thought he already knew where I stood on having SD in my home anymore than eow (NO WAY!) Well he's telling me he's going to tell her "no" because on top of everything else he started that 2nd job a couple weeks ago which means he's not even home 14 hours a day now, but I felt like he was telling me this in hopes that I would say it was okay for her to come? FAT CHANCE!

The reality is, I see this as an opportunity to open that unresolved can of worms that we haven't address in the past week. Just a week ago we were finalizing our separation plans and now here H is, right back again planning for the future?! I can't believe I let this happen, but H bringing this up today creates a another opportunity to reiterate that my feelings haven't changed since our conversation last week before we "reconciled" in H's eyes. (Sadly, it was "just sex" for me.) Believe it or not I had stated in no uncertain terms that H's unwillingness to parent SD was a dealbreaker for me (among other things) and H responded by letting me know that he would not change and that me not simply accepting his "parenting" style was a dealbreaker for him, so then we started talking about how we were going to deal with the bills post separation and an hour later we are having sex - WTH?!!

Please pray for me ya'll cause I created this mess & unlike H & his children I know that I'm the one who's going to have to clean it up, and I am gonna do it!