Sorry I haven't updated, it's just been a whirlwind around here. I met with the surgeon and a total mastectomy of my left breast is mandatory with biopsy of my lymph nodes. My case is so unusual that they really don't know what they are working with, therefore, until after surgery I won't know if is invasive or not. I have decided also to go ahead and have both breasts removed due to a sighting of "cysts" in the right breast. They informed me that the chances of breast cancer returning in the other breast is higher due to my age and already having cancer. I am only 37! Surgery is scheduled for October 11.

My step-daughter came to our house the other night (the night we found out total mastectomy was needed) and I'm not sure how to react to that. It has been a year and seven months since she has had any contact whatsoever with us. She called my husband's cell phone (with name withheld) and said she was coming by. She brought her newest boyfriend with her and the only thing she could say was "Wow! You all got a lot of new stuff!" She never once mentioned my mother's passing in December. And pretended to know nothing about my cancer. I live in a small town and people have been coming out of the woodwork with prayers, etc. Her brother was informed about it and also her half-brother (with her biomom) asked a friend of my husbands if it was true. Also no mention of her lies to police that put us in jail or about her lies getting her half-brother (my son) taken from us for a month. She acted like nothing ever happened and just walks around our home like she owns it again. So...............anyway again I'm just not sure how to react. I'm just waiting around on pins and needles wondering what's going to happen next!

I also have a personal blog that some idiot is leaving anonymous stupid comments on that I have responded to them as such.........I find it amazing how someone can read an entire blog and know what trials and tribulations that I am going through at this time in my life and find an old (Year OLD) post to comment stupidly to. I told them that any wrong doing on my part has already been asked for forgiveness for from God and in my heart I feel he has forgiven me. I am strong! I am going to beat this cancer and to stop leaving stupid comments. I only have God, my husband and my son to answer to!

So, I've rambled long enough and again I am sorry for the long post but thank you all for listening and for your thoughts and prayers. Surgery again, is next Wednesday, so please put out those special prayers again that the surgery goes well and that the cancer is not invasive. I appreciate it!