It is always difficult to deal with a miscarraige. I was 18 when I miscarried, and although it was very sad, I was nowhere ready to become a parent then. I just had to wait later until I was blessed with my 2 boys later. Please go to the doctor and see if there are any tests they can run to see if there is an underlying reason for what happened. Try checking around for grief support groups, whether online or perhaps church related. I am not a religious person, but very spiritual- I believe the power of prayer is very real. Give your pain and suffering to God. Ask for strength and renewal. It does sound like your hormones are putting you through the ringer! Ask your doc what can be done. I know that the pain is not something that completely goes away, but is does lessen gradually. I'll keep you in my prayers!

"All that we are is a result of what we have thought."- Buddha

I had a miscarriage in 2000. It is still not something I like to talk about, but it helped me to hear that other people had gone through it. The miscarriage was very hard for me, even though I was only 10 weeks along. For the first few weeks, all I wanted to do was lay around and cry. But I couldn't because I had to work. Don't deny the grieving process you are going through, but don't let it consume your life. You lost a child (in your case, two), and that is a difficult thing. We never found out the reason for the miscarriage, but I went on to have two healthy, beautiful girls (one in 2003 and one in 2006). I think it is important to give your body and your emotions time to heal. Good luck.

1 tubal and 3 miscarriages in 4 years. There's nothing that can make it easier, they are all very hard and won't get any easier. My faith is the only thing that brought me through, because DH won't understand since the baby wasn't in his belly. He might be sad, but the loss is HUGE for us when we are carrying the baby!! I can only recommend to talk to someone about your loss, grief is a powerful thing and not dealt with can cause worse problems. I gained a lot of weight from the hormone changes and I slept all the time instead of hardly sleeping. Make sure you are taking time to yourself and have a support group.

Dawn

I lost my baby & my right tube at 10 1/2 weeks. I was so depressed that between then & the time I got pregnant again I gained 30lbs. Iwas so depressed I wanted to die. I went to therapy & the therapist they sent me to was pregnant, I went the one time & couldn't go back... I did a month of anti depressants & that I think contributed to the weight gain. DH was sympathetic to a point but he didn't really get it & since he would always have the step sons it wasns't as awful for him. The only thing that made it better was getting pregnant again & knowing it was not a tubal again.

Even though I have my beautiful baby boy ( he is the love of my life) I still get teary when I think of my poor baby that lived in my fallopean tube for 10 weeks. I truly don't think that ever goes away.

I am also having a heck of a time loosing the baby weight from my loss & this pregnancy. I have always battled my weight but if I am serious have always been able to loose. That in itself is enough to make a girl depressed. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me. I never thought anything could hurt so much, and then you see all the idiots in the world that can just make babies & it is so frusterating. My pregnancy was rough & I had an emergency c section, but I thank god every day for my sunshine.

I am here if you need me.