Ok, not really. BM agreed to an every other weekend schedule until school is (as of now) back in session next month. And we offered to send some food with on what would be our weeks to keep the resentment from BM down. It seemed like BM was dying to get SD back to us. Too bad. I'm not homeschooling her while BM sits at home all day, and DH is considered an essential worker so he can't. The last month with no SD has been sooo nice. A real silver lining to all of the other stuff going on. It definitely confirms to me that disengaging for survival and my mental health was the only option.

I'm still annoyed that DHs first reaction when BM asked about going back to the regular every other week schedule was "well I dont know what else we can do?" Uh...theres no court order and he technically has no custody since they weren't married. Her needing to be homeschooled isn't something we planned for or could have foreseen happening, and BM has the ability to do it for a month more than we do. Pretty sure he can refuse something that's only a verbal agreement between them. I think his fears of her taking him to court or filing for child support after 9 years are a little overblown given the entire situation and the fact that she's the one that bawled and begged him "not to get the state involved in her life."

Yesterday I sent him screenshots of a post where someone asked if people were still doing custody swaps and most of them said no. Then he backtracks and tries to make it seem like he was just fine with that when he wasn't and was obviously scared to even ask her to change things.

Also, my anxiety is building back up just with the idea of her being here two days after the respite.