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bonusmom's picture

OH SWEETY I AM SO SORRY FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY YOU ARE IN MY PRAYERS KEEP YOUR HEAD UP>>>> Smile

evilsm's picture

I wish I could offer medical information but that's not my area. I will send prayers your way in hopes that all is well. Keep your chin up daddysgurl.

~Evil

Our greatest glory is not in never falling but in rising every time we fall.
Confucius

goingcrazy's picture

I will pray for you and your entire family. I am going to put a special prayer request in at church for you. But sweetie, your baby will be okay. My SD had pneumonia in December and was hospitalized for a week. They thought because she was not responding to Antibiotics that it could be other things, including cancer and tuberculosis. She had the shadow in her lung as well. After five days in the hospital and twelve days of MAJOR antibiotics, she finally felt better. But I understand the fear you have for her right now. Remember that doctors have to be overly cautious.They told my mom that they found black in her mammogram which could be cancer. We spent the weekend crying and holding each other. Then Monday after another test, found out the scare was for nothing. When I was pregnant with BD, they told me that blood tests at five months showed she had spinabifida and ordered me to have some special test. It took weeks, over Christmas to get me in for that test. So for two weeks I made myself sick with worry and could hardly see because of so much crying. Then I found out everything was fine and that the lab read the date wrong and make the wrong diagnoses.

God forbid it is cancer, remember that cancer IS treatable. Cancer IS overcome-able. My brother had cancer for three years as a child (2-5 years old). It was a very rare form that my parents were told could not really be treated. He is now 39 years old and VERY healthy. I have so many other survival stories. EVERYTHING WILL BE OK!!! Be strong and have faith. I will pray for you everyday. Be positive and remember that negative thoughts will only cause negative results. You are very loved here on this site and will have many people praying for.

Little Jo's picture

I'm sorry for this scare. Of course we all hope for the best and you see improvement soon. Keep us posted.

Best wishes, Jo

"May the forces of evil get confused on the way to your house." George Carlin

happy's picture

Pray for you and your little girl and whole family. Think positive, and I know easier said then done.. Be strong for her.. Although again that is very hard to do too.. I can bet you will be snuggling with her more.. Know we are here for you dear.. And if you need to vent cry (over the computer) we are here.. your in my thoughts and prayers, Love Happy and her family..
Happy

" make sure you tell the people you love most EVERYDAY.. Its important not only for them to know but for you to tell.. Life is to short to be miserable..

Imustbcrazy's picture

Your words of encouragement are what are getting me through this incredibally LONG day. Only 3 more like this to go. I just wish this feeling in the pit of my stomach would go away. I know she is going to be just fine. And this is just precautionary. But there is always that lingering thought of "what if" that is in the back of ones mind when these things come up. She is a healthy little girl.

Thanks for the prayers and well wishes. I will let you know.
Daddys Gurl-

Life is as sweet as you sweeten it.

BuggiesMom's picture

I know it is tough, but think positive thoughts! You have alot of friends praying for you so I know she will be okay!!

happy's picture

my stepdad, and in January when my called and asked for some anti=biotics because he had a kidney infection, and nope I don't take all my meds. Anyways, when I got out there I looked at him and gave him the meds and said go to the Dr. he said he would, I knew in my gut that day that the cancer was back. So he went to the Dr. and he did have a kidney infection, so they treated that, but he kept feeling worse and worse, come to find out the cancer was back it was all over the inside of him and he lived one week. The point of my story is, what is your gut telling you? Is it saying its nothing serious or that it is something serious. You will know in your own heart whether its serious or not. I love you girl and just remember think positive.. Its Pnemonia.. She will be ok.. but tell me what your gut is saying.
Happy

" make sure you tell the people you love most EVERYDAY.. Its important not only for them to know but for you to tell.. Life is to short to be miserable..

Imustbcrazy's picture

From the get go, I didn't think she had pneumonia. Maybe because she was "just coughing". So, I think that is why I am so confused. My gut is even confused. I remember when you were going through all of that with your stepdad and it was hard to hear because we are going through the same with my grandma, but she refuses to take her meds (wants to be with grandpa in heaven).

NOW COMES THE ROOT OF MY CONCERNS~ this may sound silly to some of you.

I come from a very religious background. I was raised in the Foursquare church and up until my divorce attended twice a week like clock work. When I divorced, I guess you can say my ex "won the church we attented" as he still attends there. So, I have to admit my relationship with God has been pretty nonexistant. I have not lost my faith, I just have not been real close with him as I was my entire life. Okay that being said~ after I hung up with the doctor I called my mom, not knowing how to feel, what to think... what to do... when she answered she said "funny you should call, I was just dialing your number, I have had Savannah (my daughter) on my mind all day and I have been praying for her. I just really feel like I need to tell you- Don't wait until you NEED God to FIND HIM AGAIN".... ugh~ So I told her what the doctor said and she burst out in tears. So, I just don't know what to think about any of this. I know is sounds strange, but my mom is always right when it comes to these things. I am telling myself that her "premenission" is happening now to act as a wake up call for me, and I need to just get right with The Lord again. Not that I am some sinner by any means of the common word... I have just been neglecting him. Does any of this makes sense to anyone... or did my mom raise me to be a complete nut??????

My gut feeling...panic~ but I tend to do that, so I don't want to go with that.

Daddys Gurl-

Life is as sweet as you sweeten it.

Krissy's picture

I was raised Catholic. My parents had me attend mass every Sunday until I was 18...even on vacations. Hell, I remember one summer we went to Paris and my parents actually made us all go to church even still. My maternal grandmother was a very God-fearing woman...to her, the answer to everything was to pray. My mother has that same theory and she tried pushing it on me but it didn't take. I still blame the Catholic Guilt for much of what's wrong in my life...being raised to always think, do, act a certain way OR ELSE...eternal damnation and whatnot...that's scary.

IF prayer and religion is comforting for an individual, then I am all for it. But when it tears at the idea of self-sufficiency and free thought, that's where I have a problem. I love the idea that we as humans make our own destinies, that we help ourselves. I don't believe in a man in the sky that watches and strikes us down if we are "bad". I live my life for every day, because it's the only chance I know of that I'll get. I don't believe in following some doctrines that another person told me to just because maybe it'll save my soul when I die.

I am always puzzled when survivors of major accidents thank God for saving them. So, that means that everyone else that died was just overlooked? It's all random. And that's a scary thought. This is why, I believe, religion was created. To make people feel that there is an order and a sense to life.

Daddysgurl, I know that you are worried. But please don't put anymore stress on yourself right now. If praying does help you to get through, you should do it. But don't go nuts with it because you are afraid of what would happen if you don't. You don't need to develop a neurosis too! Your mother is not you. And maybe at this point in life, the church isn't something that you gel with. That's okay.

It also sounds like maybe your mother isn't the right person to talk to about this. She's very emotionally invested and she is not able to put that aside to be your shoulder--which is totally not omething she can help, so don't be upset with her--so any contact you have with her until you know for sure has the potential to mess with your head.

Lastly, no God worth praying to will strike down an innocent child, or any human being, because he feels that he has been neglected. I believe that God is love...God is the sun...God is the teenager that helps the blind man across the street...God is the laughter of a baby. The goodness in the world. Nothing bad would ever come from that.

No matter what happens--YOU are a good mom and a good person and nothing you did or can do will have any affect on your daughter's health in this case. Her body is going to do what it will do. I honestly believe that she had walking pneumonia and that she will be fine.

Hugs,
Krissy

Imustbcrazy's picture

My mom is an emoitonal wreck right now because my grandma is not doing well on top of everyday life frustrations. I know where my faith is and what I believe. I DON'T believe that I NEED to attend church regularly to have a relationship with God, I do believe that I need him. I don't think that he will strike down an innocent child because her mother has neglected him, but I do think that he will send us a little wake up call from time to time- a reminder that we need him. Prayers do help ease my mind, I do believe that even if she is truly ill, whatever happens in the future with any of us God has his hand in it in some way. I don't think that someone dying ina car accident is because they didn't pray, but I do believe that God had his hand in everything, for one reason or another, maybe for me to never know.

I am not a bad person, I am not perfect either, I don't have to be perfect. My beliefs now would probably cause my childhood Pastor to fall over in shock, but I have a different understanding of what God is telling us through the Bible, than what the Foursqiare Church beat into my mind for 26 years. So, I agree with a lot of what you are saying. I just didn't expect THAT reaction from my mom. It was hard to hear, hard to swallow and emotionally draining. I do know that I am not where I should be with God, according to my beliefs... Something I have to fix with Him. Ya know Wink I am working through this. And the more positive thoughts are taking root in my mind.

Thanks for your support.

Daddys Gurl-

Life is as sweet as you sweeten it.

Krissy's picture

...for even saying the "c" word at this stage in the game. It is MUCH to early to even think about that. So, that doctor needs to work on his/her bedside manner if you ask me.

More importantly, I am SO sorry that you are going through this. I know that there's nothing that will calm you until next week, but know that you are in our thoughts. You are right to think positive--she will be FINE. My DD was twice tested for leukemia because of low white blood cell count and each time I was sure she had it. Masses on the lung can be caused by any number of things...fluid from pneumonia (as you know), fungal infection, a totally benign tumor that will dissipate on its own, etc. I am a little bit surprised that she wasn't sent for bloodwork, as with pneumonia, the white blood cell count would be high and that would be a tell-tale sign.

Have you heard of "walking pneumonia"? This sounds like it could be what your DD has. Here's a clip that describes it compltely, from www.cnn.com:

Mycoplasma: This tiny bacterium causes signs and symptoms similar to those of other bacterial and viral infections, although symptoms appear more gradually and are often mild and flu-like. If you've been told you have "walking pneumonia," it's probably caused by mycoplasma. You may not be sick enough to stay in bed or to seek medical care, and may never even know you've had pneumonia. Mycoplasma pneumonia spreads easily in situations where people congregate and is common in child-care centers and among school children and young adults. It may account for as many as one-third of childhood cases. Mycoplasma pneumonia responds well to treatment with the appropriate antibiotics, although you may continue to have a dry, nagging cough during your convalescence.

Note that this is characterized by the dry, nagging cough but with almost no other symptoms, and is common among children. Even if your DD isn't in daycare, odds are that she's around other kids who are at some point.

I hope that you find comfort this weekend, somehow. You and your family will be in my thoughts!

Hugs,
Krissy

Imustbcrazy's picture

And I am trying to remind myself that doctors are very "matter of fact" when it comes to things like this. I think because pneumonia is going aorund in my region, she assumed and hopefully assumed correctly. I have heard of walking pneumonia and that is what I thought it was since she has not been terribly sick. My step "sister" gets walking pneumonia a lot, so I am somewhat familiar.

Just trying to keep positive thoughts. We are having my younger daughters 4th birthday party tomorrow, so that will help keep my mind off things and Sunday going to Six Flags with DH and our good friends. So, trying to stay occupied. I appreciate you input and knowledge as usual Krissy.

Thanks for the hugs, I need them right now!

Daddys Gurl-

Life is as sweet as you sweeten it.

lmdavi0's picture

stay positive and keep staying busy. i'm sure everything will be fine!!!!
god bless.

proud mom's picture

My thoughts and prayers are with you!!! She will be fine children tend to bounce back quickly so I am sure she will also.

Live for today,you may not have a tommorow

Mocha2001's picture

Of course you are in our prayers and thoughts. Remember the power of positive thinking, and I am a true believer in the thought that God does't give us more than we can handle. Hugs and kisses!

~ Katrina

goldenlife's picture

Daddysgurl,
You may feel as you have neglected God but He has not neglected you. He was and is always there. He would not use your daughter's illness to get your attention but He is there for your comfort, to let you know you are not alone. He provides a peace (if you believe) that passes all understanding. Trust in him. You are strong, you are brave and you are loved. I'm praying for you right now.

Livin' my life like it's golden!

Imustbcrazy's picture

My mom was not saying that God was causing my daughter to be ill to get my attention. She was saying that I should not wait until I NEED him to talk to him, I should always talk to him. Meaning I can't be a "fairweather friend" because he is ALWAYS here for me, no matter what. Then I told her about Savannah... It just all happened at the same time, it was emotional and ahrd to hear. I am sure she is fine, just the mere thought scares the bejesus out of me though!

Daddys Gurl-

Life is as sweet as you sweeten it.

Anne 8102's picture

Please take a long, deep breath and consider this: IF THE PROFESSIONALS FELT ANY REAL SENSE OF URGENCY, SHE WOULD'VE BEEN ADMITTED TO A HOSPITAL, BEEN EVALUATED BY A PEDIATRIC ONCOLOGIST AND POSSIBLY HAVE STARTED TREATMENT BY NOW. They are erring on the side of caution, which is good, because they do need to rule out anything serious. It's always better to be thorough than to think it's nothing and let it go. If this was more serious than just "ruling out" the possibilities, they would have initiated treatment immediately. I know you're crazy with worry right now. Hang in there and stay positive. I'll dust off the old rosary beads, if I can find them, and be praying hard for you guys. Let us know what happens!

~ Anne ~

"Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after the other." -Walter Elliot

laughterandtears's picture

All that they are saying about if it were THAT serious is true. Almost a year ago, I found out the hard way that the Doctors act very quickly if something life threatning is wrong.

Also, I believe in God, but I don't go to church. I don't think you should have to. According to the Bible, God is just happy to know that you have faith in Him. And consider something else, would you truly believe in someone who punished your children when they were "upset" with you? Of course not, so don't your mom rattle your cage, sweetie. Your little girl is in my hopes and thoughts.

IF IT WAS EASY, EVERYONE WOULD DO IT.

happy's picture

Ok I never grew up in a church, so I don't have that back ground. I believe in GOD and I do try to be a good person and of course I will tell you that everyday I sin in some manner, I am human. We all do it daily even the most religous people. But I started when I was married to my ex, with my kids and then I moved up here, I tried a couple of churches but I did not find one I liked. If GOD created all living beings, then if you believe he is everywhere not just in churches, he is outside, so going to church to me is not the answer. I believe in GOD I believe I try to be a good loving person, so I truly believe that he is everywhere.
Now my moms take, is if you really want to find GOD just go to the prisons and talk to the prisoners, cuz that is where he is. They all find GOD in prison, but seem to loose him if they get released. How funny is that. When she told me that, I almost pea'd my pants laughing because if you think about it, its so true.
Honey, however I do believe that when its your time to go its your time. I however do not think its your daughters time. I think she is sick, but I also think its something that she will overcome with meds and all that and with your love, strength and support your family will get thru this like champs. We love you here and will continue to keep you and your family in our thoughts, and remember GOD is not just in church, he is everywhere and especially in your heart..
Love ya,
Happy

" make sure you tell the people you love most EVERYDAY.. Its important not only for them to know but for you to tell.. Life is to short to be miserable..