its weird cuz i dont care, i want him to find someone else, but hes such a go**@mn liar!

stupid me went through his phone to see if he still had that 'savior' contact saved that i posted about a few weeks ago. well i found some text messages from him to another girl saying "you still have that black thong" and "are we ready for some fun?" and "i hope there are no delays this time" (as in im thinking they tried to set up something before but it fell thru) and he got a dirty text message forward from her with some girl bent over and he said "I wanna do that to you"

Its SUCH BULL SHIT. he talked me yesterday saying how he didnt want us to decide yet about getting a divorce (even though I have already decided) he said he "wants to work it out" but he made me promise I wouldnt cheat on him (which I would never do anyway I am just not like that) and he said that he wouldnt bring up our relationship anymore, but that we would figure it out 'later' when school was done for the both of us. Hes cheated before on BM when they were together and hes always been flirty ANYWAY and has said things I didnt approve of, but yanno I didnt think he would cheat on me especially since 'he was so sincere' YAH RIGHT. and of course we havent had sex in over a month which of course is my choosing because he grosses me out. and its ODD because he usually like a sex addict always (excuse this) humping my leg. which he said that he is "okay with not having sex, that can wait, I just want you to figure out how to get those feelings back for me" which is such crap!!

of course I havent confronted him on this, and I will, for sure because damn it even though I am still going to get a divorce from him, he always acts like hes such an angel and that "even though all these girls want me, I am still faithful to you" I bet he will come up with some bullshit lie, but screw that. I was gonna be nice and let him stay for a while to get his crap together, but after this, I am not going to fake being nice to him anymore! I am actually smiling right now all those thoughts in the back of my head wondering if he was cheating on me are proven right. I mean what kind of freakin "reason" could he come up with for having those text messages BESIDES him cheating?! and it makes sense 'all of a sudden' hes perfectly okay with not having sex?