Who needs it? You know, now that I am older I can see clearly how my mother is creating needless drama for the sake of her being in control. And finding out she let a complete stranger care for me when I was an infant just drives an even bigger wedge between us. I no longer feel guilty for being different than my relatives. Who doesn't want a better life? Why am I the badguy because I got off my ass & worked for it honestly? Why should I be resented for living well? Why should I be put down for being nice & polite? Whatever. I'm glad there is a wedge between us. And I'm glad there is no guilt, because I simply don't care what any of my relatives think of me anymore. I've always been the outsider & I always will be, & I'm fine with it now.

Maybe - just maybe - I can find some healthy people to hang with in person... no offense to anyone on the site. I realize I attract other dramatists, & frankly that's exhausting. The thing is, my family is always going to have this needless drama. And yes, it will affect me, because I have normal feelings. But I won't allow it to control me. I just wonder... when a healthy person sees the drama & that I am affected by, are they going to run like hell? (like they did in Houston?) Am I doomed for a soap opera life? I hate soap operas!!! Why can't my life be a comedy... a good one?!