I've noticed I'm usually a complete "bitch" when its almost that time of the month. I say a lot of things to my fiancée most of them not being nice. It comes out like vomit!! Once I start I cant stop! and the sad part is I don't even know if thats just me REALLY telling him how I REALLY feel about him and his "lovely" daughter or if I'm just saying things to be as he puts it a "bitch" Because hey, Misery does love company. So if I'm miserable I'm taking him with me but with love. Of course he plays a BIG role, he enjoys pushing my buttons especially around this time. So he can give it but can't take it? Really?...

I don't know if I see/hear things clearly when I'm PMSing, if its my head playing tricks on me or If I'm just plain sensitive when it comes to a lot of things around this time. So the "battle" starts this morning while we are both getting ready for work....
Round 1 - He starts by asking me Why do I enjoy torturing him with the alarm clock. I hit the snooze button 3 times before finally waking up. He hates that he has to hear it because then he cant go back to sleep. Cry me a fucking river! How about all the times HE cant sleep and decides to turn on the tv full volume or when he doesn't has the courtesy to turn it off if he's not watching it!. "the noise puts me at ease" so he says. Well it annoys the heck out of me! I do not enjoy the light in my eyes nor the freaking noise! turn the shit off.
Round 2 - He asks me whats for dinner? HE does the cooking because he gets home earlier then me. He cooks I clean that was the agreement. I do not mind cooking I do mind eating at 8pm. So He usually asks me this almost everyday like hes rubbing it in my face that he's always fucking cooking. I hate it. You dont want to cook then dont!. I'm not the one with a hungry child! I will be happy with a bowl of cereal.
Round 3 - He then proceeds to ask me last minute, mind you. If I can pick up SD9 from school today because he might be working late. Knowing that I will be coming home late myself since I will be going to the YMCA to work out. I signed up for a membership yesterday(yay me!) and I made him aware that I'll be coming home late 2 to 3 days out of the week YESTERDAY. But he obviously didn't listen. I told him no! (thats when the vomit came out)I told him, the only reason I signed up in the first place was to have freaking ME time. To focus on ME for a change instead of always busting my ass trying to make him and his spoiled daughter happy. (he doesn't seem to think I bust my ass enough since he feels like he does it all the cleaning, cooking and dont forget the bills. I disagree He pays the bills yes but I help him cook and clean and take care of his bratty daughter! but HE does all the work.)I told him That I'm trying to watch my figure on like him who let himself go because he got to comfortable. That I try to stay thin not just for me but for HIM because he's always going around making fun of fat people. (I would hate to get pregnant and gain some weight!)SD9 has a mother. SHE can get her and pick her up from school. Why he had to tell me last min knowing that I already made plans? because he enjoys pushing my buttons, because he enjoys being a dick just as much as I enjoy being a bitch.
Round 4 - We are all walking to our cars. He's eating a CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIE for breakfast!! yes, you read correctly.(and I wonder why he's big) Then he walks around my car putting crumbs on it, ON PURPOSE! I'm like really? his reason, "I washed it! which means I can dirty it!" ASSHOLE I wash his laundry and clean the house maybe I should dirty that shit to!!
He's always telling me how I'm so mean especially around this time. umm hello! leave me the heck alone and I'll be nice! he tells me, "That I knew what I was getting myself into when we met", that If I want to leave I can. "He's not going to hold be back from being truly happy if that means being with someone else then so be it" That is a bunch of bull! He would be lonely and lost without me!! Here he is calling me MEAN when he tells me shit like this. How do you think that makes me feel? Well We have a 9 year age-gap. Next time he tells me I dont do enough, I'll just look him in the eye and tell him "well you knew what you were getting into when you decided to date a 24 year old" Take that bitch!!

So maybe its the PMS talking?? what do you think???