Am I wrong???
I don't often remember my dreams when I wake up. If I do, that usually means they were particularly weird or disturbing. In all of two years, Ms. Perfect has never been in my dreams.
But last night, she was. She was coming to pick up SS, and was extremely early, and she pulled into my back yard and came up on my porch. Long story short-I proceeded to beat the living be-jesus out her. Then I went on some three hour long trek to find the paperwork stating the arrangements for pick up.
I woke up in a terrible mood. Mic says, "well, if you beat her up in your dream, why are you mad?" Good question...and there was nothing honorable, like I should have never resorted to violence infront of SS, etc. Nope.
I was mad that, no matter how hard I punched her, or kicked her, or slammed elbows down on her face, I couldn't get her to bleed.
I feel like a horrible person. What am I becoming?...can't help but think that this is my subconcious telling me that I don't believe she's really human. She's just a machine that was built to exact pain and misery into the lives of all the poor folks that have to deal with her. Although I would not be surprised for this to be the case in real life, I still feel like a jerk.
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Subconscious
I am a firm believer that our dreams are our subconscious talking to us ... I think we all want to beat the crap out of BM ... I too envy you for having that dream. BM in our life doesn't really enter my dreams either, thank God, because I am like a dog with a bone ... minor OCD, whcih make me good at my job. Anyway, I think about BM a lot during the day, trying to figure out why she does what she does, etc. I have thought, adn said out loud, that I wish she'd fall off the face of the planet. And yes, I'd like to kick her ass too ... if I ever meet her in a dark alley alone ... he he he
Anyway, don't feel like a jerk ... you do not like this woman and your dreams simply expressed that, it isn't like you actually did it in front of SK.
~ Katrina
Ugh!
Why can't I have THAT dream!?! Last night my dreams consisted of worrying about investing enough for retirement!
Dreams!
Okay, here's a good dream for you ... classic in high school with no clothes on, but it was like I had missed a whole month of school or something ... I didn't know where my locker was, I didn't know the combination, I didn't know what classes I had, or where to go, and when I did get in class, I was like 10-chapters behind, and ... get this ... my dog was in school with me, and my school mates were ones from high school and younger people that I know. Too fricken weird I tell ya!
~ Katrina
LAUGHING!:)
Couldn't help but laugh when I read this. That is probably something at all of us would have liked to do at one time or another. It was just a dream and you probably had some built up anger that you needed to get out and who better to let it out on!
i have that dream too!
but in mine, instead of her not bleeding, it's like my hands are asleep and i can't really hit like i want to! i always wake up feeling pissed off. and normally when i have it, her shit has been in high gear. i think it's just a way for us to vent subconsciously. i still hate them, even when it doesn't really look like her, but i know it's her...and of course, she's always fat and disgusting! heehehee.
Me too Imdavio!
My hands are numb and not hitting the way I way I want them to, and I am walking like I am in water so I can't move fast enough... I hate that!! If I could actually get my hands her....
don't be hard on yourself
You are probably just frustrated because she is such a pain in the you know what. The fact that she did not bleed in your dream might mean that you feel that she is too unreasonable and irrational and even kicking her ass won't make her see any kind of reason and therefore won't bleed. Does that make any sense? I know what I am trying to say, but can't seem to put it into words quite right.
Nevertheless, you are not a bad person or a jerk. You are dealing with a situation that you cannot resolve and that is the most frustrating thing of all. Try not to let it get to you. (trust me, I know it is not easy) Oh, and next time hit her with a big stick.
Georgie Girl
Good point Georgie....
Your comments actually made a lot of sense to me.
I agree
with everyone else on here. You have NO reason to feel bad about your dream. I have always believed that when you dream about something and it feels so real, it is because it is something weighing heavily on your mind, or like my daddy says, "Dreaming is your mind's way of showing you a solution to your problem" ;-).
IF IT WAS EASY, EVERYONE WOULD DO IT.
No dreams about bm here.
De inimico non loquaris sed cogities.
But I do have nightmares about my ex....eeeewww...like somehow I am back living in the hell I was in before with him( and he has me on lock down) and all I can think about in this dream is how to reach my dh,(all the while yelling at ex that I dont love him, dont want to be with him, I want to be back with my husband!) I try every way of reaching my dh only to find out that he is back with bm and she will not let me talk to him or see him ect.( I never actually see her in this dream, just know she is there) I HATE this dream, and have had it like 3 times in the past 2 years. Usually wake up upset and then I become very relieved to see my wonderful dh still laying asleep curled up next to me.