BM called a little while ago and said she didn't have any extra money to be buying jewelry. She has bills that are due and just didn't think it would be wise. I found this odd since she was the one who called me to go...

I also overheard her talking to her mom yesterday saying that she might be having "company" over tonight. I'm sure I can guess what that entails. So maybe she needs extra time to clean her house or get her nails done or something.

No big deal. I let her know that I completely understood.

My skids BM is an ever-changing wind. I'm sure I complicate her perfectly chaotic world with an unfamiliar calmness. I'm also certain she wages wars in her mind when it comes to me...I've made it very difficult for her to hate me and it came pretty easy to her not that long ago. She suffers a mental illness that probably makes her question her feelings at any given moment. I can't imagine how hard that would be.

I've decided to accept her for who she is and I will always strive to better understand her outlook and sympathize. She is trying for heaven's sake, why shouldn't I?

So anywho. Maybe one day BM and I can go shopping or have a cup of coffee or something. Just not today.