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Ring at the pawn shop......... I'm leaving the pain behind

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If you recall my last post. My DH took advantage of me sexually. You all opened my eyes. I didn't want to admit that he assaulted me. I said I wanted to stop , I cried but he finished anyways. Now I have to live with the pain of a short failed marriage. I have to deal with knowing someone I trusted with all of me stabbed me in the heart. I can't get that night out of my mind. I've been talking to some people at a women's shelter for a little while now. My friend and her husband went with me to get my things. They stood right outside the door waiting for me.

I feel like my husband is breaking my spirit

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He tells me I'm stupid and worthless. He puts his children over me no matter the situation. He takes advantage of me. He doesn't seem to care about my health or well being. Last night basically nailed the coffin shut. I was tired and not feeling well but that didn't stop him from begging for sexual favors. He called me a bitch just like BM. He gave me an ultimatum. If I keep refusing him sex he will find it else were eventually. I cried , instead of stopping he told me to stop crying its a turn off. I asked him to stop. He said to just let him finish. So i let him finish.

DH tells me I'm being petty AF

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I've been noticing my belongings have been tampered with. I go to take a swig of my coke out of the bottle and all I taste is water. I go to wash my hair and my shampoo bottle is half filled with water. So it looks like someone has been using and drinking my stuff and trying to pour water in it to cover it up. My lipstick that was sitting on my dresser clearly has had the top layer scrapped off. I confronted my stepdaughters about using my stuff without my permission. I let them know if I catch anyone doing that there will be consequences. I was heated but I did not raise my voice once.

BM wants to call me out over text. Come say it to my face.

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BM sent a text directed to me on my stepdaughter's cell phone. She's mad that that SD12 has me listed as stepmom on her contact list and that she sent me a text saying "thanks for being like my second mom". I replied " Thanks for being a good kid even though we have our rough patches your a good kid. We love you ".BM sent this.

BM wanting to give her new baby DH's last name?

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Ok this is the weirdest thing I've ever heard. BM sent an email informing DH she is having a baby (not his). She wants to give it DH's last name so that all of her kids can have the same last name. The father of her unborn child is not in the picture. This really pisses me off its weird. DH asked her to please not. But she doesn't care says we can't do anything about it so were just gonna have to live with it. I don't know. Maybe this wouldn't faze some of you but I'm just not ok with this.

How to get zombie kids off the couch

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My stepkids arent going out and playing with friends or doing any fun summer things unless we take them out. All they do from about noon to 3 in the morning is lay on the damn couch. They just sit there eating junk food all damn day. I tell them I'm about to watch tv they just say ok and still sit there mindlessly text or doodle while I'm watching tv like their glued to the couch. I work most the week. I'm tired of waking up to them plopped down on the couch and heading to bed with them still on the damn couch. DH works from home so he cant play with them all the time.

12 year old wearing a thong big deal?

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SD12 was playing with the dog. She bent over and I saw everything. I asked her to go put some panties on not later now. She said she was wearing panties. I thought she was trying to be smart at first. I told her once more to put on panties. She said she was their just thongs. I told her to go put on some panties that cover everything and some shorts over those. I told DH he went and looked through her drawer and found a couple of pairs and threw them all away and informed her she is to young for those.

appropriate attire for a 12 year old?

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My almost 13 year old stepdaughter got dropped off this weekend wearing an outfit that made her father's eyes sting. She is already developing a chest but her mom refuses to buy her a bra until she is 13 so when it gets cold you see everything so DH makes her wear an undershirt at our house. She had on a white belly shirt and denim skirt that she couldn't even bend over in. She knew we where going go-cart riding as soon as they got dropped off so I don't know why she thought that was an appropriate outfit. DH told her to go change and put on some clothes that fit and an undershirt.

picture of BM entitled " My sexy girlfriend"

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My mom sent me a scrapbook of me growing up the step kids saw it and wanted to show me pictures of them growing up. DH had a shoe box full of pictures above the closet. My youngest stepdaughter holds up a picture of her mom asking DH when he took it. It was a picture of BM aka (the blob) sitting on the bed with a short nightgown on , her straps pulled down exposing her cleavage looking suductive and blowing a kiss. On the back it says " my sexy girlfriend".

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