Guess I brought this one onto myself...!
Well, it's been a long time since I last posted! Although I've been on here a few times when I've felt fed up with things - just reading other people's stories and knowing I'm not the only one struggling with being a stepparent is more helpful than I would have thought!
Quick catch-up: SO and I have been together for nearly five years now. He has two kids with BM, SD17 and SS10. SS was last year diagnosed with autism and is going to be attending a special needs school later this year as he apparently has bad meltdowns at school and at BM's home (although we've not seen any while he's stayed over at ours, but I accept his diagnosis). SD is now at college and has got herself a part-time job. They still spend the majority of their time at BM's home and SD hasn't stayed over at ours for a few months now, but SS comes to stay most weekends. SO and I have got engaged and are planning to get married next year, and are also hoping to have a child of our own in the near future.
So... SO and I had a joint birthday party a couple of months ago and invited SS and SD as well as our friends and family members. We even invited BM although she didn't turn up (which is fair enough - she and SO aren't very friendly right now). During the party, my conversation with SD turned briefly to our relationship with BM. I was careful not to be too candid but did say that I would like for SO, BM and I to have a better relationship, so that we could possibly do things like celebrate special birthdays together, or so that I can attend some of SS's school plays and special events, too. At the moment that isn't happening because SO and BM hate each other's guts and BM doesn't inform us of any school events going on. SD seemed happy with the idea and I do actually think it would make everybody's lives that bit easier. At the end of the day BM and the Skids aren't going anywhere, and because things had been going so well between me and the Skids I didn't think anything of having that conversation with SD17. She's nearly an adult now and I thought she was mature enough to handle a conversation like that. Oh boy, was I wrong.
SO got a text message from BM the next day stating that she wanted me to contact her, and threatening to come over to our house if I didn't. I phoned her later in the day and she said she wanted to meet up with me to have a chat but didn't say what about. SO was due to go away for a few days and so I agreed to meet up with BM at a local coffee shop. BM and I haven't had a lot of contact and I only spoke to her on her own once before this time, when SO was too ill to pick SS up for his overnight stay. So I was pretty nervous and not too sure what she wanted to speak to me about. Well, it turned out that the main reason she wanted to talk to me was to inform me, quite firmly, that I had no business trying to interfere with the way she was raising her kids and that I needed to be very clear that I have no role to play in their lives other than happening to be SO's new girlfriend. She told me that apparently, SD had come home from our birthday party pretty upset, not so much about what I had said but because SO told her at the party that he was sad that he isn't seeing much of her anymore now that she's in college and has a part-time job. But it turns out that BM did some digging and SD told her all about the conversation I had with her at the party, and she wasn't best pleased with what SD told her. Most of the rest of the conversation was taken up by her complaining to me about SO and how he's being a terrible ex-husband, and how hard it is for her to raise two children on her own, and how there's zero chance that we will ever do anything together as a kind of extended family.
I tried to reassure BM that I'm not trying to criticise her parenting decisions and that I'm not interested in trying to play an active parenting role. I also informed her that, as I wasn't around when she and SO were together, I am in no position to make any judgements around their relationship then or now, and that I'm not interested in how they're working out child support and the like. I think BM left feeling a bit happier about the situation but I left feeling much worse. That didn't improve when SO spoke to SD two days later, and SD told him that BM had told her all about the conversation BM and I had.
Long story short, I feel a little betrayed by SD for going behind my back and, by the sounds of it, grossly exaggerating to BM about what I said at the party. I also feel pretty annoyed that BM has told SD all about what was said between us, in what I believed to be a private conversation between two adults. This isn't at all helped by the fact that SD started her conversation with SO by saying "well you know that BM had a word with Catgirl the other day..." because that almost makes me look like a scolded child. The whole thing infuriates me. Up until this point I tried very hard to stay out of any of the politics associated with being a stepparent, but because things had been going so well I guess I thought my relationship with SD had matured to a point where I could talk to her a little bit more openly. Sadly, I have learned that she is still a child and that it is therefore inappropriate for me to talk to her about anything related to BM. This makes me sad, because I now feel awkward around SD and am inclined to just disassociate from her altogether, because the last thing I want to be is the person in the middle of this whole dynamic. So for now I am once again taking a step back, seeing as I think I overstepped the mark altogether in the first place...
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It doesn't matter how old SD
It doesn't matter how old SD gets or how mature, or how well you think you get along with her, her loyalty will always be with BM. Make no mistake about that and don't ever think that you can confide in her or even talk to her about BM. As you have found out, not only will she go running to BM, repeating every word, but she will exaggerate everything you say (and in a negative way).
Just tell BM to go eff
Just tell BM to go eff herself. Do what you want to do. And ignore the whore.
"... he's being a terrible
"... he's being a terrible ex-husband."
This made me laugh.
Stay far away from this woman. In skimming over some of your older entries, it sounds like BM was the type to try to keep your SO on ice, post divorce, for happy family gatherings and help with the kids, because omg caring for two kids is not easy. At least she set you straight about all beings friends. I'd separate myself from her and avoid engaging in any personal chitchat with SD.
IDK, I think you rather
IDK, I think you rather inappropriately sat the SD up to do what you wanted, but didn't want to take the first steps on yourself.
You wanted a way into BM and her BM to know your 2 cents. You used SD to do that. Really nothing at all to do with whether SD is ready to act 'the adult' and/or have 'adult conversations'. If you have an issue with BM and/or the relationship DH and you have with BM, the adult thing to do is you and/or DH approach BM...you decided to sneak it in via SD. Totally unfair to SD.
How 'adult' would you have taken the conversation if SD had approached you and wanted to discuss what she viewed as the problem behind her mother and you. Promptly laying the ills at your feet?
You used the SD and no, it didn't turn out the way you thought it would. So yeah, it brought this on yourself. SD delivered the 'message' you meant for her to, BM called as you had hoped she would. You eagerly went running off to meet BM on that you believed she'd seen your light (your view of the situation)...however BM shut you down.
Seriously, whether SD is 10 or 20 or even 40, don't put her in the middle of the two women and her father in her life. If you have something to say to BM or want to try and work on something BM does or doesn't do , you take it to BM yourself (or your DH does). The relationship along with the ins and outs of it are not for the daughter to fix
" I would like for SO, BM and I to have a better relationship, so that we could possibly do things like celebrate special birthdays together, or so that I can attend some of SS's school plays and special events, too. At the moment that isn't happening because SO and BM hate each other's guts and BM doesn't inform us of any school events going on."
None of that is on the SD. None of that is on the SD to 'fix' and/or clear the way for you and DH.
" SD seemed happy with the idea and I do actually think it would make everybody's lives that bit easier."
SD very well may have been "happy" to think things may get better between her parents and SM. She may have repeated exactly what you said, hoping to accomplish improvement for her brother's sake. Just how well did you expect BM to take this delivered message and by who you sent to deliver it?
Lesson learned - never talk
Lesson learned - never talk to the skids about their mother or the relationship between yourself and her mother, never tell skids how you feel about it all.... They will always side with the biological parent.
Always remember... if SD starts talking about her Mum, stop her and say - your mum is not here, I'm not interested in her doings.... cause know what, if SD is angry at her mother and calls her a bitch, as soon as you open your mouth SD will tell BM - SM called you a bitch...
It doesn't matter whether you
It doesn't matter whether you were wrong, or not wrong, with what you said to both SD AND BM. That is water under the bridge, and like you said, lesson learned. We all speak before we think it through at times.
What matters is that not only can you not trust BM not to twist things around or have drama, you have also proven SD cannot be trusted.
I would most definitely disassociate/disengage/step back from her. It is not being mean or cruel of you to do that. When we burn ourselves putting our hand over a flame, we tend not to want to do it again. Disengage/ignore and move on. NO sense in driving yourself crazy now in even analyzing what happened. It happened and you learned.