so tomorrow is mediation...im so scared about what might happen. ive been sick over this whole mess for so long now and it hopefully will all be over tomorrow but im so afraid of how FH is going to handle the whole thing. im so worried that BM wont agree to what we want...or wont come to an amicable compromise. shes so money hungry & we really cant afford to give her more money. she doesnt care about her kid or she wouldnt have pulled all the crap that she has w/ FH. she has made his/our life so difficult, all bc shes a vindictive bitch. she has alleged abuse against us, lied in a modification motion, name called, done so much other stuff that FH has said to me, if she keeps this up i cant see FSD bc i cant live like this, w BM pulling all her bs and making it hard to live a peaceful life. i just want this to be over...im so sick of worrying and wondering what our future will be like and if shes going to continue to pull this kind of stuff just out of spite. does anyone have any tips about mediation in the state of missouri or any experience that might help? if not, just telling me to have faith might make me feel alittle better i just want FSD to be a part of our life and to have BM let us see her w/o constant drama. btw, just reading the posts on this site has helped me so much just knowing there are so many other people out there who have dealt w this and feel the way i do sometimes...this site has been a godsend for me. thank u all so much.
hoping it will get better...