I want them to leave, I want them to leave!! Today the three of them (SO and his 2 boys) found things to do out of my way. When they came home I went out wakeboarding with my sister. It was perfect! However supper wasn't as well separated.... I came home just as they were cooking supper and I want NO part in eating with 2 boys that can't keep their mouths shut, their food in their mouths and make it a race each time to eat as fast as they can (unintentionally... but gross) so I stayed inside and had my own dinner while they bbq'd outside and ate outside. I can definately feel the tention this is putting on my relationship with my SO. We don't even chit chat when he comes in the house for something. I just hate everything about this situation. I realize the only way out is to just leave it all. Those kids will always be involved and I can only imagine they will always be an issue. I hate them, SO loves them.

I find it very hard to find a balance. I feel guilty and SO seems to want me to feel guilty when I don't stay home and do stuff with them. I knows I don't want to be with them, but it seems it's only okay when they are the ones going out doing fun stuff. It's not as okay when I leave them here and go do fun stuff. Guess we'll see how he reacts when I go back out on the river tomorrow!!!

SO is quite unfair in many ways.... One way street for him lots of the time. Thinks it's fair when they leave me here and make plans for a big exciting trip...not the other way around! Go figure! Another story for another day!

I need to find more things out of the house to do to get away!!!!