You know, I really do like children. I also actually care about my SS. That is a good thing since my FDH is the CP. But, that child is certainly making it difficult to care right now. Last night I got sick of his whinning and crying at dinner and I got up and took my food outside the resteraunt to eat because I couldn't deal with his spoiled, infantile behaviour any more. My fiance had picked up a real estate catalog and was glancing through it, he ask SS if he wanted to look at it and he said no. My son spoke up and asked if he could look at it. FDH handed the catalog to my son and SS had a mental breakdown. He started crying, hard, and wailing. FDH asked him what was wrong and he said "I want the book, I want to read!" FDH said, "SOn, you told me you didn't want it." SS responded by saying that he wanted it now, give it to him now. FDH told him no, because if had really wanted it he should have told him so when he was asked, and he was not going to take it away from my son. Well then the water works got worse and the dance began. The dance is this FDH "Stop crying or we are going to leave the table since you can't behave" SS"No, daddy! no!! I don't want to leave the table *moe tears" FDH "Then dry it up and stop this fit" SS"More tears and wailing" now, repeat this exchange about ten times before FDH will actually implement the consequence and take the child away from the table. Meanwhile, everyone is staring at our table like, "OMG, that child is acting like that."

Well, last night I couldn't do it, I couldn't sit through the dance. I was already in a foul mood and I was fed up with SS behavior, I was fed up with FDH lack of follow through, and I only made it through round four of the dance before I picked up my food and walked out of the burger joint we were in. I ate in the parking lot. I don't even care. At least it was quiet. Well, the evening continued to get worse, with even my BS acting up (I don't have any illusions that my BS is an angel, mind you, all kids have their moments). The evening ended with me telling the kids that they would be going straight to bed, no story. I had a fit.

So this all ended with my SS telling my FDH that I don't love him, because I don't hug on him constantly and crap like that. So FDH tells me this morning I need to wake SS up and give him a big hug and tell him I love him because he is feeling unloved. Bullcorn. I do everything for that kid. I am not a touchy feely person, I do not hug and kiss and love on everyone, and my SS can get over it. La, but the lack of appreciation from my FDH gets me sometimes. I drop SS off at daycare, pick him up, spent my lunch break putting goody bags together for his Easter party, all because I CARE, and if it isn't good enough they can both suck it. And that isn't even the tip of the iceburg on what I do daily. What a way to start the morning