thank you, onehappygirl. i am doing much better. i have been staying with my friend, i have a joba nd am still in school. exbf and exsd are still up north. he and i talk on the phone and online sometimes.
in one of our convos recently, he told me how sd's progress is since we split. she hasnt gotten much better (making me beleive it wasnt all me). last week when he and his mom were cleaning her room (sd still doesnt do for herself), they found a bunch of notebooks with the word "private" written all over them. he said they snooped, and found out some interesting things.
most pages were drawings of her and i, her pointing a gun to my head. others were letters she started writing her dad and bm about how she hates me and wants me gone. the one that troubled him the most was about how she was goign to get rid of me somehow, and her mom would come back. it also stated that the knife she had in her backpack was for me that day after school. apparently she had ut it in her bag, knowing i checked her room everyday when she left for school.
he said that there were no dates on the pages, but there was tons, and he isnt sure how far back they actually go. he said that when he talked with exsd after finding them, she broke down and said that she just wants daddy to herself and her mom back, and that no one would listen to her when she tried to talk about her feelings. this child NEVER told anyone anything about how she felt.
as i mentioned earlier, she isnt doing so well. he stated dating an old hs friend (he went back to his home town up north) and the first day he brought her to the house, exsd's first words to this woman was "great, now i have to do this crap again."
so while i am crazy, this girl was crazier, her father noticed too late, and he says he wishes he would have listened to me. he says he still has feelings for me, i am the mother of his other child, but he knows he cant come back.
all in all though i feel so much better, i am getting the help i need and will have bd3 back fulltime before i know it (she is with my parents).
i probably wont really be on here, as i am no longer a stepparent. but i just wanted to let everyone know how i was doing.
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thank you, onehappygirl. i
thank you, onehappygirl. i am doing much better. i have been staying with my friend, i have a joba nd am still in school. exbf and exsd are still up north. he and i talk on the phone and online sometimes.
in one of our convos recently, he told me how sd's progress is since we split. she hasnt gotten much better (making me beleive it wasnt all me). last week when he and his mom were cleaning her room (sd still doesnt do for herself), they found a bunch of notebooks with the word "private" written all over them. he said they snooped, and found out some interesting things.
most pages were drawings of her and i, her pointing a gun to my head. others were letters she started writing her dad and bm about how she hates me and wants me gone. the one that troubled him the most was about how she was goign to get rid of me somehow, and her mom would come back. it also stated that the knife she had in her backpack was for me that day after school. apparently she had ut it in her bag, knowing i checked her room everyday when she left for school.
he said that there were no dates on the pages, but there was tons, and he isnt sure how far back they actually go. he said that when he talked with exsd after finding them, she broke down and said that she just wants daddy to herself and her mom back, and that no one would listen to her when she tried to talk about her feelings. this child NEVER told anyone anything about how she felt.
as i mentioned earlier, she isnt doing so well. he stated dating an old hs friend (he went back to his home town up north) and the first day he brought her to the house, exsd's first words to this woman was "great, now i have to do this crap again."
so while i am crazy, this girl was crazier, her father noticed too late, and he says he wishes he would have listened to me. he says he still has feelings for me, i am the mother of his other child, but he knows he cant come back.
all in all though i feel so much better, i am getting the help i need and will have bd3 back fulltime before i know it (she is with my parents).
i probably wont really be on here, as i am no longer a stepparent. but i just wanted to let everyone know how i was doing.