I hate Christmas
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Understanding Christmas as a stepparent. I don't think many get it. I have cried twice today because of SO. Once because I got cocky around my family though he says he fell in love with me cocky. Second because I was looking for a gift and he is worried about the kids...which I am too but I have pain as its a anniversary of a miscarriage and I had dreams about my unborn baby the other night. He won't give me the time to talk about it and is pissy I'm down but one it's not my kid yet I busted my ass and got him by either paying or shopping for it. and I have the what if thoughts. I just want to give up on everything.
SBM, I am so sorry. Sounds
SBM, I am so sorry. Sounds we childless stepparents have similar challenges. It's really hard.
http://childlessstepparent.wordpress.com/2012/12/24/holidays-for-childle...
I'm so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. I have been unable to conceive and I can't imagine how hard that would be if I couldn't talk with my husband about it. Take good care of yourself.
It wasn't our miscarriage
It wasn't our miscarriage just mine so I get not wanting to talk but I still feel like the brunt of the anger tonight.
Sometimes even though it was years ago I wonder and I know it's normal but I just want to be down I don't want to suck up my emotions. Mind you we are with his family not mine so not only does he get to make it about SS but his family. He apologized for yelling and making me cry but it still hurts.
We are normally happy and no issues. I know he is stressed but its like he doesn't understand not only me being the only one in the house without a child but that has lost a child. It's not easy.
I'm glad you take time for
I'm glad you take time for yourself and are usually happy, but losing a child is a terrible loss and I really feel for you. And made even harder because you're with your SO's family and it's the holidays. You must feel really alone. I'm so sorry. And then to add that you're the one working so hard to make things nice for your SO's child. That's really hard, too. Take good care of yourself.
And I have taken time fr
And I have taken time fr myself but that is when I get down.
I lost a child 40 years ago.
I lost a child 40 years ago. I never had another pregnancy. I can still tear up thinking about it.
See a counselor that
See a counselor that specializes in parents who lost children.