It has been six weeks since we have had the skids and I thought that I would be ready for them this weekend after such a long break. I now find myself getting anxious and mentally preparing myself for the chaos that comes with having three skids. Idk why but every time I feel as if my territory is being invaded and I can't shake this feeling, even though it has been six weeks. I don't feel this way when any other guests come over.

I would never tell dh that his kids could not come over on a weekend he was scheduled to have them but it doesn't mean that these feelings go away. When the skids are here I often withdraw into my room with ds. I wish I didn't feel so alone and awkward in my own home. There is one skid I actually enjoy talking to and being around, sd9. She is great and we do her easybake oven together or I'll let her role play while cooking with me (she is my sous chef), but other than seeing her I don't care for these weekends. I feel like I am mentally preparing myself for ss11 bad attitude and the pint sized brat sd5. I am not looking forward to her whining because someone is not doing what she wants.

I'm also not looking forward to going with dh to pick them up. We are dealing with a GUBM and she has threatened to only send the pint sized brat this weekend and not let him see the other two. Why? Because we refused to take the skids on Mother's Day. So she was going to try to keep all the skids but since dh told her we had a birthday party planned for sd5 she is only sending her. Ok let me just say how mean! How mean that you don't want your daughter to feel loved and enjoy the party with her brother and sister (who make up half the kid guests). You're going to let this little girl feel that this celebration isn't important? I'm sorry but I find this mean. There is no point in keeping the other two to try to "flex" her muscles or hurt dh. Does she realize the end result hurts sd5. No? Because like I said before BM is a selfish brat. So I have to go to ensure dh calls the sheriff's department if things go south (read that they can choose to come or not and I hope they will because I want her to stop thinking she can control us). Also Bm might be totally bluffing but I honestly do not know because dh said she kicked him where the sun don't shine in front of a cop during a squabble, so maybe she will get crazy and go to jail (one can hope).

Drama drama drama! Why can't BM only communicate about kids and just follow the papers? Why does she have to cause a fight and make things more hectic than it has to be? Is it so hard to act like a grown up? Civilized? Idk, I don't think this is too much to ask for. If you can pretend you're a good little Bible thumper every Sunday then why can't you pretend you're an adult? You're a 32 year old woman for crying out loud (with the maturity level of your five year old)!!!!