I heard SD18 say to one of her friends that the last time she visited BM she said she might be getting released early. I don't know if its true or not. I can't stomach the thought of it. I have been in these girls lives for the past years. Yes its been a bumpy road but I have to say if I dig deep in my heart there is love there for these girls. If BM gets out I'm scared they will turn away from me and leave me behind like a sack of rotten potatos. I have invested my time in energy into their lives. BM has always been on drugs and running around with guys leaving DH to pick up the slack alone until I entered the picture. I want SD15 to have her baby and grow as a person and be a good mom and stay in school. I want SD18 to finish college and do something with herself. I dread the thought of BM getting out because I know she will run into the arms of some pothead BF and the girls will want to live with her partying it up and sucking their lives down the drain. We wouldn't just let SD15 run off but I know she would fight like hell because no matter what their mother has done they see her as a glowing saint. And I know prison has not changed BM because the last time I took SD15 for a visit she spat in my face and had to be hauled off. I am biting my nails and praying this is all BS. We just need a little more time to hopefully get and keep the girls on the right track. Just the thought of her getting out pulls at my heart strings and makes me realize ho much I really do care about these annoying, spiteful, rude beautiful young women.