So after all that happened, I was PISSED. So FDH, you think I'm the cause of all this? Fine!

I checked into how much money I would need to get by on my own and finish my BA. Turns out, I can do it all by myself if I take out student loans. This made me pretty excited, and I was hard as hell on my FDH when he got home after he left the house saying "screw you".

I told him I didn't love him anymore. I loved the man he used to be. I told him he was right, we weren't working anymore and that it probably would be best if we broke up. It's noone's fault, I said... We just don't work.

So.... the backpedalling starts. He says "I didn't break up with you, I was just angry." Excuses, excuses. He wants to change. He wants to be the man I want him to be. He has spent the last few days being uber nice to me and trying to make me feel special. The only problem is, I am not feeling it.

He is a contractor and has torn up two bathrooms in my house. They have been this way for over 2 years. He started working on fixing them two days ago. Now, I'm thinking to myself... Can I keep this up until my bathrooms are done? He can't give me any money, but I sure will take his labor.

Here is where the wrench gets thrown in a little bit... Last night he says he feels like all his efforts are for nothing and that him being sweet to me isn't working. I told him you can't just get over stuff like that and "feel" like a couple again right away. He got mad. I realized that I wasn't doing exactly what he wanted and that made him upset. Hmmmmm, control much?

Now he is back to saying we aren't working and I totally agree. We had a fight about groceries this morning; the only thing he is required to purchase for the house anymore.

Sigh... I loved the man I met, what happened to him?