BF has been so strong through all this, and finally the other night he broke down. It came after several hours of snappy remarks, arguments, and even him talking about leaving. Finally he realized the reason why he was so upset and that he was taking it out on me because he felt like I was all he had.

He broke down crying that night as we lay in bed, sobbing over how much he missed his son. That day he was doing some work in BM's town and on his way back home he realized he was behind SS's school bus. He said he kept speeding up and trying to get as close to it as he could to see if he could catch a glimpse of his son, or watch him get off the bus. He never did get to see him, though...which honestly I don't know if that's good or bad because this might have been even worse if he DID see him, even for that split second.

My heart breaks for my BF and my SS. We all know how often our men cry, and this man has only cried a handful of times in the three years that I've known him. I hope that things get better soon.

BF's attorney informed him yesterday that the papers she's serving for suing BM for contempt of court also include a petition to change custody to BF. She said it's a long shot, but stranger things have happened. BF's attorney is just as upset over this ordeal as we are and she's ready to do whatever it takes to make things right. That made me so happy! I'm hoping for success with that but keeping my head down here on earth because I realize that it probably WON'T happen...but it's the first step and maybe BM will realize that her parenting is not guaranteed and that we mean business!

If you can, please keep us in your thoughts and prayers. It's getting harder every day, and it was already hard enough as you all know. Thanks so much to every one of you for being here for me. *hugs*