I could go into crazy long detail about my situation, but I don't have the energy right now. I live with my boyfriend of almost 2 years, and his three sons (12,16 and 20). His 14 year old daughter comes over EOW. The three oldest have one BM, and the 12 year old has another. The two oldest boys were physically and emotionally abused by their mom, and they are damaged beyond repair. I'm relatively certain that the 16 year old is a sociopath.

The two oldest turned on me today, in front of the guests we had over for Memorial Day, and told me the following:

- I do nothing to contribute to the household (because I'm currently unemployed and collecting benefits. Apparently all of the food that I buy and the bills that I pay and the shit that I've purchased for them is "not contributing").

- All I do is sit on my "fat ass" all day and do nothing. (Not true, I'm starting a knitting business, so what looks like nothing to them is actually me building my inventory. Not that that is ANY of their business. And can we talk about, for a minute, how the 20 year old has had two jobs in the last year, quit both after 2 weeks and has sat on his ass for more than a year doing nothing but playing video games. But I'M the one doing nothing, and he had the nerve to tell ME that I've been unemployed more than I've worked since I've moved in - quit one job due to the commute and one job was a temporary assignment...? Funny, cause I'm still pulling money in...)

- I'm a bitch who picks on the 16 year old all the time ("Picking on" = asking him to take out trash or telling him not to eat my ice cream or open my mail...?).

- The 16 year old told me he does not and will never respect me.

- The fact that I'm having a hard time adjusting to living in a house with this many people is unacceptable because it's been 2 years. I should have "been over it" already. It doesn't matter that I have no kids of my own, I've lived on my own for 10 years, and I'm not used to having people up my ass all the time.

- This is not my home. Backstory - I had a fight with the 16 year old in November and, feeling attacked, I left the house to drive around. Today, while feeling attacked, I went to go to my bedroom to get out of the situation. The 20 year old said, "Do us all a favor when you leave and don't come back this time." Nice.

All of this, and more, was said in front of our guests and their father. Their father, my boyfriend who is very slowly becoming no-longer-the-love-of-my-life, who agreed with them that I should be over this needing to adjust thing by now. And said that I tend to over-react to things that none of them would care about.

So, yeah. I don't know why I'm shocked that the 16 year old doesn't respect me when his own father doesn't. And of course the 20 year old hates me, because every time my BF has a problem or is frustrated, instead of coming to me, he goes to the 20 year old's room and bitches to him. And lied to me about doing that.

I don't know where we stand right now. Part of me wants to get 3 jobs and bust my ass to save money to move ASAP. And part of me doesn't want to give the kids the satisfaction of me leaving, because that's exactly what they want. I just needed to vent.