I am trying SOOO hard to not care. I am trying to let it go.
But I can feel the panic building in my chest. My MIL, SDs gma, SOs mom said to me this morning, "Its time for my son to get control over that girl or you need to tell them its time for them to get out." This is the kid whose own mother can't stand her. SO just started a new job so he is currently working two jobs, gone all the time, exhausted, stressed out and so I have been trying to "fill in the gaps." Translation: I am ALWAYS here alone with SD. I just can't take it anymore. She is out right disrespectful and horrible. She either completely ignores me when I'm talking to her, OR she sits there glaring and scowling at me until I stop talking and then she does whatever the hell she wants. SO hasn't even been home and a few days ago he told me he is ready to go "dump her at BMs and tell her its her turn to figure it out." I just don't know how much more I can take. I have had a migraine for a month straight and I feel like my chest is about to explode. I honestly hate this kid. She has tried from day 1 to make my life a living hell. She thinks she ran off BM2, which I think might be actually somewhat true, and she thinks she can run me off. What she doesn't get is if they lose me they are homeless, no one will take them back in. My SOs mother and grandmother have both taken them in and they said they will NEVER let him move back in with them as long as he has SD11. I live in a tri-level 2,600 sq ft house. Her room is the farthest possible point away from the front door, I can smell her piss from the front door. Guess what the rest of my house smells like? Why to I wake up in the middle of the night with the smell of pee so bad It burns my nose and I throw up? I literally go in her room and help her clean and disinfect on a near daily basis. It does no good. It had gotten somewhat better, but when she started middle school her new teacher was oh so nice and babied her and gave her attention when she wet herself. Once she starts getting herself into the habit of releasing her bladder whenever the hell she wants it happens all the time. I don't think SO has the energy to even care, I think he is so accustom to the smell it doesn't even phase him. I just do not even know what to do. I hate this kid. I know thats such a strong statement but I HATE her. I've taken everything away from her, I've made her do extra chores, I've grounded her, Ive tried bribing and nothing works. She does not care. My SO has no one else right now. Hes going to take BM to court but that is months away possibly more for there to even be a resolution. Even knowing that in 4 hours she will be coming home from school makes my chest tighten and my breathing harder. SO won't be home to late tonight and then I would hate to bring all this up because he will be so exhausted but I need help. I don't think I can physically or emotionally take any more abuse. How can one 11 year old cause so much trouble?!