My SO and I have been together over a year now. I love him so flippin much, I haven't ever felt the way I feel for him for anybody else!

I am normally not a jealous person, I don't worry whether or not my SO is running around on me or anything like that. Recently I have had the feeling that his feelings towards me have changed and that he doesn't feel as strongly for me anymore. I asked him the other day about it and said I am just not feeling his commitment anymore. He told me I was crazy to think he felt any differently and that he still loved me just as much.

I guess I slightly accused him of being with his ex again! :? I know it's a horrible thing to do unless you really have reason to think so but I just had to ask. I don't like to keep things in, I am a very open honest person and I like the same from those around me so I can be slightly confrontational. You know just sometimes you get a feeling and you have to go with it, well this was one of those moments. I really don't think he would cheat on me but I didn't want to just sit around and play with the idea, I had to ask.

Recently I haven't been the....sweetest :O We both quit smoking and it's been really difficult for me. I still crave it and if i'm having a craving I tend to be quite ...well...bitchy lol Since I am with him all of the time he ends up taking the brunt of it. I don't like to be like that but it just ends up happening. I've been trying to be better at this too and hope that my feelings of him cheating on me or not having as strong feelings will go away with the cravings.

I think I am just losing it and it's as if I am trying to replace smoking with thinking!!!!! That's a stupid idea because look where the thinking is leading me :?