First of all before I start this I know in my head BM is really never gonna get better and she's always gonna be who she is, but I have a tendency to follow my heart and hope for the best.

Yesterday BM calls to talk to the kids, no big deal. As she is talking to the kids she ask to talk to me, so I get on the phone, I know how to put my big girl panties on and speak to another adult like them or not, our conversation didn't last long because the kids wanted to talk to her again. So I happily gave the phone back to the kids. The kids got off the phone with her and all was good.

A few minutes later the house phone (which we got so she could stop calling my DH's cell to talk to the kids) I answered and it was BM, she wanted to have more of conversation with me without the kids knowing she was on the phone. Okay once I put my big girl panties and had an adult conversation with her. We discussed her current arrest, what could happen to her in April when she has the trial, the kids, her mental illnesses and the 8 different medications she has to take for said metal illnesses, how she is dying to see the kids but can't afford the $25 an hour parenting center and she thank me for all I have done for the kids and told me she appreciates how DH and I stepped up for the kids while she was being a piece of shit (her words). This call lasted about 45 minutes. I figured maybe she needed some reassurance that everything is okay with the kids and a little encouragement to do better with her life for the kids, so no biggie I can do that and maybe it will help straighten her ass out. We hung up and I felt good about the calm conversation we had.

A few minutes later she called back again. She wanted to talk to the kids, so I let her. She then started to cry and tell them how much she missed them and how much it hurt her. Then asked to talk to me again and started begging me to let her see the kids with me supervising. I told her this isn't up to me that the courts have set something and she agreed to it. But it's really up to DH. Then we hung up again around 7 pm.

A little after 8 the house phone that no one else calls started ringing again I did not answer it and she didn't leave a message, so I thought it's over now. Nope I was wrong maybe 2 minutes later the phone rings again, I still did not answer. This time she leaves a message crying "SM this is BM I really need you to call me back, please call back now" I text him DH (who is at work) and ask him to text her to tell her to stop calling, while I was sending that text she called again and left the same message again.

DH text her "You need to stop calling the house multiple times you've already talked to the kids and have called in the upward of 7-8 times" She never responded to DH's text and she never tried calling back.

This is what I get for being nice, DAMN IT!!!!! Won't make that mistake again...ugh