I am jealous of Princess....no doubt. I hate myself for it. I do question myself though. I had a SD from a previous marriage, I was not that way at all. I really enjoyed her. I never felt any of the feelings I am feeling now. Perhaps it is the situation...My ex-husband gave her a lot of attention when she was there...we planned our weekends around her...I actually missed her when she wasn't around. What gives??? I can only think it is the difference in the personalities. Princess thinks about no one but herself. She is possibly the most annoying child I have ever been around. She is so excessively needy and immature it is unreal. The only reason she is nice to anyone(including her dad) is when she has found a new thing that she wants. So she whines and begs for it and absolutely wont take no for an answer. She is nice to me when she wants me to do her homework for her. She was sick this past weekend...OMG..you can't even image what that is like. She has no coping skills...not even enough to tell us what we could do to make her more comfortable. She just laid around around and whined and wouldn't talk...just baby jiberish. I know she was sick but she is almost 10 not two and she can tell us what she needs and she can take medicine to make her feel better but she refused.
Now my stepdaughter before her didn't act like that but she was raised by a great BM who let her grow. She was a very pleasant person to be around.
I don't think I would feel the way I feel about Princess if she acted different. If she ever showed an ounce of compassion, respect, or courtesy maybe I wouldn't feel the way I do. Sometimes I wonder if it's more that I feel that this child is so undeserving of the treatment she gets is the reason I feel jealousy.
I do realize that this is not her fault because the more I see the more I realize that she honestly doesn't know right from wrong.