It's not just this one thing, it's a lot of things. I'm so angry and part of it is being angry that I'm in such a sh!tty mood right before Christmas.

SS-now13 is once again effing around in school. Not turning in projects, not turning HW and CW. He was failing science and SS and had a D in english because he didn't turn in project/HW/CW. I have access to email during the day and the ability to take calls at work. So I helped DH out and spoke to SS's teachers. I made him do the work and turned the projects/hw/cw in for him via email. I had not checked his grades to see if his grades were any better because I'm still working that part time job on the weekends so I could do more for christmas. DH gets a text message from SS13 with a screenshot of SS's grades(showing he was now passing-barely) saying "HAHA I win" It completely set me off. (I really think it was just the straw that broke the camel's back) That disrespectful little @sshole. DH was upset and tried to call and text with no response from SS. So I shut off his phone. You are not going to use a phone that I pay for to disrespect your dad and I have told him repeatedly that he needs to answer DH when he texts/calls. This was just yesterday.

Wednesday I ask him why he didn't turn in a project on monday that he told me was done. He said "Oh my laptop was broken and I just got it back today from the help desk" That's the 4th time this year he's used that excuse. So I called the school help desk. The rep looked it up and said he has not seen SS's laptop at all this year. So he effing lied to me. Awesome. When we get home I ask SS again "Why didn't you turn in your laptop?" He replied "I already told you..." I shut that disrespectful sh!t down quick. I told him "you do not speak to me like you're a grown up. You aren't" When I reveal what I learned from the help desk rep. DH went off. He abhors lying.

SS told DH he doesn't like coming to our house because we make him do chores and homework and we are always on him. Fine then go live with your mother...but noooooooooooooooo he can't do that. We're the only ones who buy him things. He can't possibly give that up.

I feel like I'm pissed at him all the time. He has zero consideration for other people. He's ridiculously disrespectful to everyone. He lies ALL the time. I'm mean ALL the time. We went to a nurtrition appt and he lied to the counselor 3 times in 2 minutes. He's so lazy he can't even close the cabinet doors. How hard it is to close the cabinet door? It takes what? a half a second? (see it's the little things that are driving me crazy)

DH won't even go out to dinner when we have SS anymore because all he does is complain. About everything we do and everywhere we go. Unless it's sitting on our asses playing video games.

I'm just done. I'm tired of being lied to. I'm tired of always being the bad guy. We are ALWAYS the bad guy. He's a disrespectful little sh!t just like his mother. I'm tired of bending over backwards for someone who doesn't appreciate anything. I told DH I understand if he can't but I have to disengage. I can't do this right now. I have a son who wants to do well in school. Granted it's just kindergarten but he wants/needs help with his homework. He is working on his handwriting. He's reading more advanced books. I don't have time to mess with SS and his stupid bullsh!t. I'm tired of fighting him. If he wants to be a lazy @sshole like his mom, fine. I don't care, not my monkey not my circus. My kid is going to be a rockstar.

If you've gotten this far...thanks for reading. I know it was probably stupid and I should just chill out but thanks for letting me rant anyway.