this sounds terrible but....
I am so looking forward to going home, making dinner for me and my boys, and just relaxing by myself...
Is that terrible? I mean I feel happy today. I know DH is not there and things are pretty shity but I still feel like a weight has been lifted....
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I don't think that is
I don't think that is terrible. I wish for that almost every single day. I hate feeling resentful and wish I had the courage to tell my SO. Congrats to you for standing up for your sanity!
I think it's a well deserved
I think it's a well deserved evening! After watching my SDs lie to and manipulate my DH this weekend (and him ignoring it even after he found the proof himself), I worry that I'll be in your situation one day. I'll come looking to you for guidance!
I envy you... I am already
I envy you... I am already dreading leaving work and going home to DH and his wife (I mean SD14) The only reason I am going right home is to save my beloved BS2 from them. On the days that he goes to daycare, I will be finding things to do, people to visit etc after work so I can delay going home for as long as possible. She has been there for 3 days and I already can't stand to see her crammed up DHs ass 24/7.. FML
I empathize with this "
I empathize with this
" leaving work and going home to DH and his wife (I mean SD14)"
I envy you too Daisy. Whats
I envy you too Daisy. Whats wrong with wanting peace and some time with your family?
I hope I can be as strong as you and get my life back to an enjoyable level for me and my bios too.
i have no idea why you feel
i have no idea why you feel bad. This should be the way it is.
I'm so proud of you Daisy. It
I'm so proud of you Daisy. It isn't terrible to want some peace - to want a life that feels like YOURS and now one that is driven and controlled by a child.
Not terrible at all! I am
Not terrible at all! I am counting the days until SD leaves for college and I can FINALLY have some peace. 74 more days...I am so excited!
It is not terrible. It is
It is not terrible. It is space you've been needing & a break from the hormonal entitled SD drama.
Enjoy your time. Indulge in the peace & calm of your home. "Home" is meant to be a refuge from the ugly of the outside world. If it feels good you're doing it right. Congratulations!
this is how I felt when I got
this is how I felt when I got divorced. Just to have time to myself and to chill with my kids, it was amazing.
I wanted to say something earlier.... it's a great thing to love another person. BUT when that person can't love you back in the way that you need to be loved then that creates a resentment bank. Every single time anything happens, the balance get's higher in the resentment account until everything in your life becomes toxic bc of the unhealthy relationship and the resentment that has built up from someone that won't take the time to find out what you need to be in this relationship.
For me, I rant and complain a lot but I know that my bf does love me deep down. Yes, the situation is not ideal. Yes, I'm constantly annoyed that his princess is the princess. But when it comes right down to it, I don't have it half as bad as 75% of the ppl on here. I foresee some issues that will remain in my future bc of sd12 and bm. Either we learn a way to accept these problems or we don't.
When it get's to the point that the almost adult child is running an adult parent's life.. this is a serious problem and no amount of love on your part is going to make it all better.
I guess I'm saying that I'm all for love but sometimes you have to let go of it and see if it comes back.
And if that "love" was so good for us then it would not be making us sick, stressed, bitter, angry, and constantly in a state of turmoil.
That's not love.
Enjoy your evening.. I know how you feel.. we all need some downtime and it sounds like you and those boys have earned it!!
that creates a resentment
that creates a resentment bank. Every single time anything happens, the balance get's higher in the resentment account until everything in your life becomes toxic bc of the unhealthy relationship and the resentment that has built up from someone that won't take the time to find out what you need to be in this relationship
This is what I have been trying to explain to DH. SD14 just moved in with us after about .5 seconds of discussion between DH and I and of course me just having to roll over.. because what am I going to say? NO? He pulled the "well you knew that I had kids before we got married, you knew what my life dealing with BMs was like before we got married" I told him that was true, but year after year, every stupid thing that happens, every thing that gets rammed down my throat that I have no say in, or my say is just disregarded, keeps piling up like a giant weight on my head and it's getting to the point where I can't take it any more. Something's gotta give and it's not going to be me.
Daisy duke I agree...Its like
Daisy duke I agree...Its like we always have to be the one who has to deal and has to make things better and we have to be the ones who have to make an effort...Hey what about the children? I try my hardest with this little piss head and get slapped everytime. I am done being slapped and now I hate the kid due to it....
Its so hard to love a man so much but hate there children. It kills me
Daisy - kind of know how you
Daisy - kind of know how you feel. My SS22 is a drug addict at one point my DH wanted to let him back in the house since he was falling for his bull. That was two years ago. I just knew I could not live with this kid - he had to go.
Still a drug addict by the way and it took my DH a while to realize when he was being played for money.
i know nights like this with
i know nights like this with my girls are what I live for..
I look for your latest post
I look for your latest post everyday on here Daisy...glad today's is positive!
I am happy that you are relaxed a bit more and enjoying your sons.
You need peace, so enjoy, enjoy, enjoy!