I feel so lonely. I am a SAHM. BD is 8, BS is 5. My SD's live with us full time and they are 15 & 12. And there is no EOE away from them. Their mother has no visitation rights. My DH works a lot of hours too. He leaves at 5:15pm and can get off work anywhere from 2:45-6:30 a.m. Then he comes home and sleeps all day of course, gets up anywhere from 1:00-3:00 depending on what time he gets home. I am here all day with these kids. I am so LONELY. It seems like everyone has a life, but me, but I don't want to go do anything and I don't want people to come see me. So what's the deal? I think I would be a little happier if his girls weren't here every freakin' day and it was just me and my kids, but if I feel so lonely why don't I want to go see people or have visitors?? I know part of the reason is that I have inexplicably gained weight over the last couple of years and I feel very self-conscious in everything I put on. I feel fat in everything I wear. I also have curly hair that is such a pain to get to look like anything. I hate my hair, I hate my weight, I hate the way I look. I hate looking at his kids every day. I hate that I never see him. Why should I have to sit with his kids when I hardly get to see him?