As I posted earlier this week, I ended things with my BF. At first I was numb and now I am very sad, but feel my decision was the right thing. I think the hardest part of it all is accepting that I made the decision to move to my new town and all the negative things that resulted from that. I left a good paying jobs and colleagues that I loved, left my family, who helped me as a divorced mom of two, my hometown, my friends. I took a job in my new state and was unhappy, so I suppose it was a gift in a way that my position was eliminated earlier this year. I've been unsuccessfully looking for work and unfortunately live in a very economically depressed area with little opportunities for someone working in the field I do. It is so bad, in fact, I am having to return to an old career that I didn't like in hopes of trying to find work.

So, I am unemployed and living in a place where I don't know anyone and where jobs are scarce. I can't move home because my kids -- thank God -- are thriving in school and are teens...you know how high schoolers depend on their social network. I think that moving them home would be detrimental, and I just want them to be ok. After all, I was the one who moved them in the first place...how can I move them again because I am miserable?

I have gotten involved in two different volunteer groups and am slowly getting to know my neighbors. I've met a couple of women who are also transplants to this area but am still just starting to build a relationship with them. Damn, it's like dating!

I am not a religious person but was considering going to church to get some roots. I am going to keep reaching out and trying, but right now, I feel completely scared and adrift. I really have no one to help me should I have an emergency, well, except my neighbor. I have full physical custody of my kids.

Anyway, I was just hoping someone whose had an ending had any words of inspiration for me. A succcess story. Flourishing after a breakup and building a new life that is thriving. Is there anyone here? Dorothyparkerwannabe...I know you had a painful breakup...how are things going?

I just need some positive vibes ladies! This is one of the most difficult things I have been through...