Man, yesterday I had the biggest pity party. It kind of all started the day before. The only part that was step related was my general irritability about the way FH coddles SD8. Most everything else was just life in general. Being screwed over by companies I deal with, being taken advantage of by people (mostly at work), BD14 giving me lip, not seeing my BS18 for days, FH giving me the cold shoulder night before last and then leaving his phone in his car last night (so I couldn't vent to him about anything). On top of all this being at a hormonal time of the month...I just lost it. Went to my room, buried myself under my blankets and cried like a 2 year old. I think this happens about once a year. It's almost like there's a dam that builds up and I hold it in for so long that it finally bursts and I can't control it. I'm just SO glad FH wasn't home last night to witness it. I don't cry that often...I'm pretty hard to break when it comes to that...and I HATE for FH to see my cry. He came home later and I was still all puffy eyed. He asked me (remember, his XW died mainly because of her alcoholism), "Have you been drinking???" lol I go, "No...but I swear to God if we'd had liquor in this house I would have been earlier."

AAAHHHHHH...today is a new day and it's going to be much better, right??